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Bhikkhu Sobin S. Namto Wheels No: 266 /
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Contents:
Provisions
For The Journey
The Way Clears The Teacher The Preparation The Interview Seventh Day Eighth Day Ninth Day Tenth Day Eleventh Day Twelfth Day Thirteenth Day Fourteenth Day Biography Of Achan Sobin S. Namto Foreword
The instruction
in this manual is that given by the Venerable P.M. Sobin Namto, our
teacher
(achan), a Buddhist monk and meditation teacher from Thailand. Selected
portions were chosen from taped conversations with Achan, recorded in
an
informal atmosphere. An interview section, slightly edited, is provided
for the
meditator as general guidance in the initial phases of meditation
practice. The
instruction is in no sense definitive, as each meditator’s
experience differs;
however, similar problems manifest under different guises. Our
frustrations,
anxieties and conflicts appear to have a common genesis: all spring
from the
root-base of greed, hatred and confusion. The material
presented in this digest presumes the reader’s acquaintance
with the techniques
of Vipassanaa-Insight Meditation and fundamental knowledge of the
Dharma. The
text is not highly polished; some repetition is inevitable. But if a
glint of
the brilliance of the Crown Jewel of the Dhamma—the way of
mindfulness—is
reflected within the mind of the reader, these writings will have
served their
purpose.
Introduction
by Achan Sobin
As a novice, I
carefully studied the Buddhist teaching and diligently applied myself
to the
study of philosophy, scripture, history and language. I could explain
the most
abstruse points of Buddhist philosophy and speak on the field of
Buddhist
meditation. My mind was packed to overflowing with facts. Only when I
decided
to put the books away and actually entered meditation training myself,
did I
begin to understand truly what I had studied and what I had been taught. I sincerely
hope that each reader is encouraged to pursue the training with
ever-greater
determination, to search for the truth—to discover the dharma
not found in
books. May
you all
persevere on the path.
Achan
Sobin Provisions For the Journey
The arising of
Insight-knowledge occurs spontaneously and intuitively. This
realization of
truth differs, however, from knowledge born of focusing on painful
physical and
mental phenomena. The Noble Truth of Suffering is not restricted solely
to
negative conditions of body and mind, nor to the readily observable
facts of
birth, sickness, old age and death. The suffering, which the Buddha,
repeatedly
emphasized, concerned the profound truth of the lack of stability of
all
phenomena in the mental and physical world . . . the primal insecurity. The
acknowledgement of this particular aspect of suffering is the gateway
to deeper
levels of Insight-knowledge. All unliberated beings have this original
dis-ease, for we have not penetrated fully the profound magnitude and
significance
of suffering. The root causes of pain—craving and
attachment—have not been
completely exposed. By entering training in Insight development, the
meditator
experientially discovers the Dharma. The truth becomes a living reality. The great
majority of Buddhists content themselves with superficial knowledge of
the
teachings, convinced that spiritual evolution is quite beyond their
capacity.
Let us not be so sceptical of our potential for development! Neglecting
to take
advantage of our good fortune to practice Insight Meditation is to have
wasted
the finest opportunity for growth afforded a human being. The
Buddha-Dharma pulses with life. Even the distance of 2,500 years has
not
obscured the way for the earnest seeker. The path is clearly marked.
Why delay
any longer? Novice
meditators often enter Vipassanaa (Insight) meditation
practice with keen expectations
of experiencing blissful or mystical states of mind; in fact,
occasionally
meditators seek training specifically to develop supernormal powers. If
we
believe the purpose of training is gauged specifically to yield altered
states
of consciousness, we seriously misunderstand Insight
Meditation training. The
purpose of training in Vipassana is to know
the mind, in its actual condition, moment-to-moment.
Training is undertaken to establish the true power of the mind. Its
only
purpose is the realization of enlightenment. The calm and
spiritual ease born of Insight is that knowledge giving clear vision of
the
true nature of existence. We awake to see the illusory nature of the
ego
concept. The misery-making defilements of the mind are finally totally
exposed
in the powerful beam of mindfulness. And as we grow watchful and alert,
their
ability to delude the mind is gradually weakened. This is the coolness
that
quenches the burning . . . the unshakeable calm born of seeing things
as they
are. It is the refuge giving protection amidst the diffuseness of the
world. Insight
training builds mindful awareness. It develops clarity of mind that is
strong
and precise. Meditation is not our goal, but rather serves as the tool
enabling
the unfolding of Insight into the real nature of the world. Meditators are
often discouraged during the early stages of practice to discover they
are
experiencing greater mental and physical pain than ever before.
Becoming
disheartened and lacking proper guidance, many abandon training, or
continue
“meditating” in a haphazard, unproductive manner,
with little or no discernible
progress. This unfortunate situation may prevail for some years. And it
is not
uncommon to see serious mental disorders result from such mismanaged
practice. Mind development should be
cultivated with
emphasis on careful progression. Initial
resistance to training the mind is a normal occurrence, and
when the rope of
mindfulness is finally applied, the struggle for freedom is intense and
searing. Applied too tightly, strain is bound to result; applied too
loosely,
the mind drifts away. It is at this crucial stage that meditators who
are
experiencing difficulty should seek all possible means to seek proper
guidance. Meditation
training follows the same principles governing the mastery of any
skill.
Step-by-step training assures steady, sure progress. The perfection of
the mind
requires the utmost determination and a most decidedly courageous
attitude to
pursue training through the inevitable confusion, the boredom
and
restlessness, the physical discomforts and the desire to escape the
necessity
of disciplining the mind. The desire to run away is strong. But how can
we run,
shackled as we are by greed, hatred and delusion? The weight of the
deluded,
unknowing mind is oppressive. We can drop that weight and be free, now! Beginning
meditation instruction is simplicity itself: when bodily calmness is
present,
focus is naturally centered on the breath, an easily discernible
object. This
main object of mindfulness (the breath) is temporarily averted any time
there
is awareness of seeing, hearing, smelling, tasting, touching or
thinking. The
mind is then brought back gently to the breathing. Lapses in
attention are a normal occurrence in the early phases of practice. As
concentration
is stabilized and the mind is calmed, mindfulness is naturally
sharpened. The
meditator learns to observe the mind objectively. All feeling-tones,
desires,
memories, etc, are exposed and scrutinized—gently and
non-judgmentally. We
learn to look closely at what is actually
present. Newcomers to
training often feel that meditation is “not going
well.” Surrendering to
depression and impatience, they often wish to terminate practice. The
correct
procedure to follow is to maintain the position of observer, simply
acknowledging all feelings which arise in consciousness in a
calm, detached
manner. Nothing is suppressed. We should try to train calmly,
patiently,
sincerely . . . not yearning for quick results. Training
should not be deferred until some nebulous “future
time.” No certainty exists
to guarantee that our mental and physical capabilities will be
sufficient to
the task. The Buddha had many lay and ordained disciples who made the
resolution to practice under the most trying circumstances.
Occasionally the
ocean of suffering was crossed at the cost of life itself. They felt it
was the
proper decision, preferable to continuing to live a meaningless
existence—a
life of desolation and emptiness. It is not
difficult to compose a myriad assortment of rationalizations to justify
putting
off training to another day. Sometimes, as we approach the moment of
commitment,
hesitation causes us to retreat . . . fear is awakened, for we are
approaching
unknown territory and we wonder if perhaps it isn’t better to
continue as we
are . . . we might miss something. And why, after all, should we embark
on such
difficult training? Immersing ourselves in the normal round is, after
all, so
easy. Ultimately,
the great incentive for training is our growing sensitivity to
suffering and
the vacuous, insipid nature of life. It is not really a question of
renunciation of the so-called pleasures of life, but rather of interest
dying
naturally—the allurements fade and grow dim. Until such time
as we are stirred
by our own unrest, the mind will be uncertain, wavering and full of
doubt. It is crucial
that we become aware of our internal drives and the impulse to remain
in the
world. The most fatal of attachments can be the clinging to suffering
itself:
the fear of “letting go,” the fear of freedom. So
we go on clutching suffering
to our hearts. Perhaps that is the only thing we have, and we are
afraid. The
time may come when we realize there is no need to suffer at all, no
need to
fear the unknown. One may speak
of the spiritual journey as leaping to the “Other
Shore”—to Nibbaana. Leaping
here signifies dedicating the mind to the task completely, committing
ourselves
with the some determination as the first astronaut who jumped from the
space
capsule onto the moon. When the woman
or man reaches awakening, deluded ways of thinking are abandoned.
Though life
continues rather normally, the mind is free and luminous. It is an
immutable
condition, impossible to fully relate to others—as is the
astronaut’s
experience not wholly communicable to earth-bound people. No matter what our circumstances in life, each one
of us can attempt
this journey. The birth of
Insight is not very far from us, especially when cultivation of the
mind is
continuous and resolution is present. There is a saying in Thailand
that
enlightenment is right under one’s nose! So continue
breathing mindfulness! Clarity and radiance appear in the minds of the Liberated Ones. The unenlightened mind is dark. Worldly people do not have a crystalline pure, unfettered mind. If we did, there would be no need to practice. Sights
Along The Way
Strange mental
phenomena appearing during training is a natural event in the course of
Insight
practice. Do not permit imagination to create two kinds of
understanding.
Attention given to any vision or peculiar occurrence only serves to
hamper
progress. Watch closely and see what is happening. Be the good audience
of the
drama, but remain unattached to the passing show. Mindfulness will be
undermined if interest or curiosity is aroused. Students—use
your intelligence!
Attention must protect the mind at all times. The unguarded mind
permits any
weakness to easily gain control. Do not waste
time. If there is confusion regarding practice or fears which cannot be
resolved by you, consult your instructor for corrective action. The student of
mental training should understand well the differences between samadhi,
or
concentration-type meditation, and Insight meditation. The mind in
higher
stages of samadhi is temporarily restrained with regard to the mental
hindrances. The highly tranquilized mind
cannot gain wisdom. The flux of phenomena cannot be observed,
for
consciousness is fixed. Certainly, no
Insight develops without concentration. In Vipassana training, a
sufficient
level of momentary concentration is developed to do the work of knowing the arising and passing away of
phenomena. A meditator
may have particular fears of uncomfortable memories half-buried in the
shadows
of consciousness and suddenly, without warning, the difficulty is
encountered
in practice. Armed with courage and the attitude of not succumbing in
the face
of anxiety, the meditator will be able to successfully confront any
obstruction. Focus mindfulness on any
disturbing mental state. Be calm, strong and patient. If fear
is permitted
to hold sway over the meditator’s practice, it will gain in
strength and return
repeatedly to test the endurance of the meditator. When the obstacle
has been
faced and the way cleared, training can be resumed. Indeed, the Dhamma
protects
those who practice it. When one truly
understands the urgency to cultivate the mind, the student realizes
that
training continues everywhere. To “break
training” or “return to training”
does not arise in the mind of the meditator who fully
comprehends the
implications of mind-development. Meditators are often confused
regarding
practice, and actually believe that meditation only occurs when seated
cross-legged with eyes closed! Whenever the eyes see a form, ears hear
a sound,
nose senses a smell, tongue experiences a taste, body knows touch, or
the mind
recognizes an idea, one is aware of it. That
is meditation. We try to remain awake, at all times. If we do
not grasp at
anything or have attachment, then there is no suffering. The mastery of
the mind increases with devoted practice. We should ask ourselves
simple
questions and test our understanding daily. Do we feel differently
about life?
Are we aware of mental defilement when they arise? How soon are we able
to
remove the nourishment-giving support to these peace-robbing mental
stains? When
understanding matures, everything we do in life will be meaningful.
When we do
any kind of work with attention and clarity, ignorance and defilements
cannot
enter the guarded mind. After we have
trained in meditation for some time, if there is no improvement in our
daily
life we may be certain that a particular understanding is lacking. Do
we know
how to rectify the situation? Usually a
meditator will realize some level of Insight after continuous practice
of
Vipassana training for seven days, seven weeks or seven months. If no
higher
knowledge has been realized during these periods, it will be reached
during
other stages of practice. A student who
wishes to terminate an intensive period of practice and resume training
at a
later time will continue from the level of development attained. The
awakened
condition of mind does not have to manifest at any particular moment;
in fact,
if the goal of liberation is not attained within this lifetime, one can
proceed
in the next life. Firm intention and high motivation, however, must be
present
to walk the path. As meditation
practice develops, the student will have experiences never encountered
in
ordinary life. The body will seem to disappear and no
“self” can be found to
exist. Its “ownerlessness” becomes clearer. The
physical body will be perceived
solely as an accumulation of aggregates of form, feeling, perception,
mental
formations and consciousness, conditionally existent and
ever-disposed to
suffering. Memories and all thoughts will be seen to appear and
disappear in
lightening-quick flashes. Awakening is approaching when we perceive
these
truths for ourselves. Our doubts will be completely resolved. Our
questions no
longer pertain. A calm, unshakeable certainty is born. We simply know. During periods
of intensive retreat, it is difficult for the meditator to evaluate
progress
during certain stages of practice. The major thrust of attention is
directed
toward keeping mindfulness on all activities, making self-evaluation
practically impossible. Feedback is an
essential element in meditation training, and it is the duty of the
teacher to
be aware of the increasing strength of a student’s practice.
After the trainee
has been practicing for some time, an appraisal should be made so the
meditator
can be aware of the significance of training. This is especially
necessary when
the student feels that meditation has not been going well. The
meditator may,
in some instances, actually be progressing. Meditation
training should not proceed blindly or unthinkingly. If we could
focus precisely on the present moment when following the mindful
walking
exercise, then the idea of “my” leg would not
arise. There would be no “I”
involvement and no “practice.” Similarly, the eye
would not be able to identify
objects coming into the area of perception. Sound, which merely has the
function of entering the eardrum and causing it to vibrate, would not
be
concretized as speech or music, etc. In fact, it is possible to focus
on the
split-second between hearing sound and recognizing it in the
conventional
manner. Conventional
interpretation of sense data is necessary, of course, for functioning
in the
mundane world. In Vipassana training, however, the meditator exposes
the
reality behind all appearances. It is our usual way of interpreting
sense
perception which leads us astray, compounding the error by
superimposing
negative and positive qualities on bare cognitive reception. The
Enlightened Ones can see so-called beautiful or ugly physical forms and
view
them objectively, with equanimity, i.e., without the discriminating
mind giving
rise to attraction or repulsion. Everything is seen as it really is:
impermanent, possessing the potentiality of suffering or
dissatisfaction, and
ownerless. The man or woman who truly comprehends the nature of the
world does
not cling to appearances or conceptions. The ordinary person and the
person of
Insight can remain in society but the latter truly knows the world as
it is.
There is no possibility of deception, of having the mind shift
off-center. This is the
truth about our physical and mental world. Each meditator can verify it
personally. Rapid progress can then be made toward awakening. Any time when
we can gather together all our meditative energies into one unique,
powerful
force—specifically the concentrated power of the Eightfold
Path—the groundwork
has been prepared which has the strength, endurance and direction to
enable the
realization of a higher level of Insight. After some
skill has been acquired in training, meditators should be able
to more easily
detect the instant when mindfulness is weakening. Focus well on every
activity
and mindfulness will resume its strength. The meditator
may, in fact, be able to detect that developed mindfulness
carries a
comfortable, alert feeling; when it decreases, a subtle sluggishness
can be
sensed. In all circumstances, try to be aware of the strength of
mindfulness. In all stages
of training, Insight can occur in the presence of so-called
“good” or “bad”
states of mind. In Vipassana practice, we discover such negative or
positive
conditions are equally unstable—both
states rise and fall away. The deeper the level of truth realized, the
more
profound will be our understanding of life. Meditators may
find detailed information regarding the development of Insight in the
section
relating to the Stages of Purification as presented in The
Path of Purification (Visuddhimagga),
by Buddhaghosa. Training which
does not proceed through stages of Insight remains training in the
worldly
sphere and will not lead to the end of suffering and confusion.
One’s practice
merely remains a practice. An erratic
stop-and-start pattern of meditation practice delays progress.
Nevertheless,
students should be aware of their zeal for training and not proceed if
faith in
the practice has weakened. Further progress in the development of
Insight
meditation can proceed only when confidence, earnestness and powerful
mindfulness are equally matched. There is an
initial stage of Insight which leaves the meditator experiencing a
strange
depression and restlessness. This uneasiness is peculiar to
the dawning of
Insight and has no parallel with worldly mental states of distress. A
sense of
amazement appears, as though one has seen for the first time the
impermanent,
suffering and impersonal nature of the world. These facts of existence
were
known before, of course, but seen only with worldly
understanding—until now. A loneliness
suddenly descends. There is nothing in the world in which we can place
our
trust. A nauseating desolation, sometimes approaching oceanic
proportions, may
be acute for a time. And one feels isolated from the rest of the world. The meditator
who is not aware of the basis of these feelings very likely may develop
pronounced feelings of anxiety and agitation. Rebellion at this stage
is a
frequent response to this melancholic condition. The meditator may feel
training is useless and that it is preferable to leave practice rather
than
endure such trials. During this crisis a teacher can direct attention
to the
source of this most stressful condition. The student will understand
that these
feelings appear as a phase in practice and the disquiet emanates from
his own
mind. The temptation to abandon practice will be put to rest and
training can
be resumed. When first
entering practice, trainees have to contend with the hindrances of
sensuous
desire, ill-will, laziness, restlessness and sceptical doubt. When the
student
progresses beyond that point, even more subtle defilements appear to
test the
endurance of the meditator. These tests along the path are called
Defects or
Defilements of Insight. There are ten Imperfections: effulgence of
light,
rapture, tranquility, happiness, faith, exertion or energy,
mindfulness,
knowledge, equanimity, and gratification. Each category can be
further
enlarged as to the particular variety of Imperfection the meditator may
experience. Please understand they are
not in themselves defilements, but may become the basis for subtle
feelings of
pride. In fact, many meditators experiencing one or the other
may feel they
have reached enlightenment! Some practitioners of Vipassanaa meditation
reach a
plateau where total peace and emptiness prevails and they think that
Nibbaana
has been realized. They ask their teacher to release them from
practice. Others
take great pride in believing themselves to be good meditators. It is
extremely
easy to grasp at any one of these stages. Inability to progress further
in
practice is often linked to attachment at this stage. It is the rare
person
indeed who can self-monitor practice at this point. The inexperienced
student
will hardly realize that attachments are being formed. Our feelings
therefore can cause us many difficulties. It is the mind which is
fooling us,
playing games. The mind has been enslaved by defilements for so long
that it
will not relinquish its hold without a death struggle. Continue
your practice steadfastly. Above all, don’t let your feelings
be your teachers.
The
Way Clears
Correct
practice of Vipassanaa Meditation is the highest cultivation of The
Noble
Eightfold Path. Correct practice of The Eightfold Path means living
constantly
with mindfulness. Mindfulness is our only protection from delusion and
suffering in the world. Only when
realizing the first stage of deliverance can the precepts for wholesome
living
or morality be firmly established. Until that attainment, ordinary
human beings
will experience fluctuations in observing the requisites for harmless
living. According to
Buddhist tradition, the Stream-Winner (Sotaapanna) is one who has
realized the
first liberation. He or she has perfected the Five Precepts of basic
morality
which arise spontaneously and never disappear. No necessity exists for
formally
taking the precepts. The Once-Returner (Sakadaagaami) also has the Five
Precepts which appear automatically. The Never-Returner (Anaagaami)
spontaneously observes the Eight Precepts at all times. Though they may
live at
home, they have truly given up attachment to their families. The
Buddhas and
Enlightened Saints have established natural morality permanently. It is
true
morality of the purest kind, for the Awakened Ones always have
mindfulness. The
specific development of spontaneously-arising morality for living in
the world
belongs exclusively to those Noble Persons who have entered the path to
Nibbaana. The type of
virtuous conduct or morality maintained during periods of meditation
retreat is
observed by those disciples who are committed to walking the path to
liberation. The requisites for correct living are fulfilled when
mindfulness
rules all activities of thought, word and deed. No delusion or
suffering can
gain entry into the protected mind. It should be
noted that the blameless conduct born of following the Five, Eight or
Ten
Precepts of the Buddhist lay devotee, or the many disciplinary rules
governing
the monk or nun, are essential for the orderly functioning of the lay
or
religious life. The observance of these worldly rules permit the
follower, lay
or clergy, entrance into the heavenly worlds alone. Not even the most
rigid
adherence to these precepts, however, will permit the realization of
Nibbaana
if penetration into the true nature of life is lacking. The
discovery of truth is gained only by insight, which is inextricably
linked with the development of concentration and morality. When
attachment to the world begins to wane, there arises a deeper
penetration of
the world as it is. A natural compassion and sympathy begins to flow to
all
creatures; their suffering is seen sharply. Life moves on and for the
person of
growing Insight, life tends to appear as rather normal in most
respects—but
there is a difference. When something in the worldly sphere is not
obtained, no
disappointment arises. There is the understanding that nothing in the
world is
actually “mine,” that nothing really belongs to
one. This awareness allows us
to live more at ease than the person who lives with grasping, who does
not see
the world clearly. The Buddhist
texts say that the person with clear spiritual vision sees the world as
a
grand, gorgeous play, forever rolling on and on, one act following
another. A
play. A dream. Buddhist scripture also tells of a glittering chariot
belonging
to a king. His subjects were so entranced by this splendid vehicle that
its
true purpose was all but forgotten. Our true purpose in this world is
to end
suffering—to go home, to realize Nibbaana. The Buddha and
his disciples, of course, wished to help suffering humanity. They lived
in the
same physical world with other beings. They were, however, enlightened,
free
beings. They knew the magnitude of suffering and looked upon this
sorrowful
world with utmost compassion. In their wisdom, however, they knew that
human
beings differ in their capacity for understanding the truth. There were
people
who had difficulty understanding the truth and could not follow the
path at
all. Others listened, but had no desire to change their life. Only
those people
who had been taught the lessons that suffering so amply provides could
benefit
at all from the teaching. At least they were willing to change the
direction
of their lives. The Buddha
used the simile of a lotus to describe the spiritual ascension of the
human
being. The lotus begins its journey to the sun from an under-water bed
of mud.
No one knows exactly when—or if—the lotus will
bloom. When the bud finally does
open, the plant may be healthy or rotten. As the bud pushes its way to
the
surface, it may be snapped away by a sea animal. Some flowers will
indeed be
hovering above the surface of the water, and when the sun warms the
petals,
they bloom—and receive the light. The life of
the individual is no different with regard to understanding. Some may
not come
in contact with the path in this lifetime, others will meet it and,
depending
on their understanding, develop the path to a lesser or greater degree.
And, of
course, others may turn to another direction. When it is
possible we should try to help others. There are many different ways we
can aid
each other, but it is extremely difficult to help others skillfully. We
do not
know their past history or their tendencies. Sometimes we can help by
doing
nothing at all. If we can maintain a balanced mind then we can aid
others in
the very best way, without becoming entangled in suffering ourselves.
To
ensnare ourselves in suffering is of no help to anyone at any time. In the first
and final analysis, we should rely on ourselves alone in the
development of the
spiritual life. The Buddha cautioned that the truth was to be our
Supreme
Teacher, the only refuge. The Buddha cannot cleanse our defilements,
for it is our mind which is steeped
in confusion.
The Buddha and his teachings give the proper direction to follow, but
neither
he, the teaching, nor the Buddhist clergy possess any power in
themselves to
lead anyone to Awakening. It depends entirely on our own determination
to end
suffering. No one can do our work. Similarly, the Good Friend, the
meditation
teacher, can only offer instruction, pointing the way and helping clear
obstacles from the path. The Buddha
always encouraged monks, nuns and laity to constantly develop
mindfulness. The
Enlightened Ones have freedom from ignorance and do not, therefore,
have to
develop mindfulness as a practice or training. For various reasons,
laypeople
have a tendency to curtail training. We should, therefore, be aware of
the
great gift of the Dharma bestowed on us and apply ourselves diligently
to the
practice of mindfulness. There are only
a few guiding principles to be emphasized for all-round practice of
mindfulness
in our everyday life:
The
Teacher
For many
meditators, the association with an experienced teacher can be the
pivotal
experience influencing the maturation process leading to
Insight-knowledge.
Perhaps months or years of nearly fruitless meditative efforts may be
corrected
by merely the briefest hint from a teacher. As the meditator ascends to
higher
stages of Insight, the obstacles strewn along the path grow so subtle
that
often the lack of proper guidance precludes further
advancement. The relationship of meditation teacher and student is a delicate, intense and intricate one. Most of us need guidance to integrate our understanding into daily life. Until the day comes when we are “on our own,” cut loose from delusion and neurotic attachments, the Good Friend, the meditation teacher, can be the helpful companion during much of that long journy.e The PreparationThe
personal interview is the basic communication link between teacher and
student. Inquiry is made regarding previous meditation experience and
basic knowledge of Dharma. Instruction is given in the theory and
practice of Vipassana meditation. Careful watch is made of the
student’s progress. New instructions are given on the basis of
the meditator’s stage of knowledge or awareness realized. The
Interview
The meditation
interviews which follow trace the practice of two students, commencing
on the
seventh day of training. Though both students had previous meditation
experience, this retreat marked the initial introduction to intensive
practice.
Quite often questions overlapped and responses are grouped together.
The reader
is reminded again that instructions are given solely as guidelines for
the
serious meditator who may not have access to qualified instruction. No
written
statement, however, can replace the personal guidance of a skilled
teacher in
assessing the step-by-step progress of a student. Interview
Section
Seventh
Day
Achan:
Now that your mindfulness (sati) is stronger, have you
noticed anything about your breathing? Student A:
Yes, there is space between the rising
and falling of each breath, and the next round of breathing. Achan:
Good. The fact that you perceive space means sati is
following the breathing well. When the meditator is clearly aware of
space in
the breathing in-and-out cycle, it is necessary to find
additional objects of
attention to “spoon-feed” the mind, as you would a
child. If attention is
placed only on acknowledging breathing and sitting, the mind may find
the
opportunity to stray. We have to give it more work to do. I would like
you to focus on breathing in . . . out . . . sitting . . . and, now,
touching.
By “touching” I mean mental touching, not physical
impact as such. Actually,
they are the same reality for it is the mind
which focuses on the point of touch, and it is the mind which knows the
perception of touch. Focus on the touching point as being a small
circle. Place
your attention on that point, while mentally acknowledging touching.
After you
have acknowledged touching, I want to see if you can move your mind and
have it
“touch” a different area of your body. Choose one
point which is most distinct
to you: your knee, buttocks, shoulder, etc. Whatever body part is
chosen, focus
attention there until I have another interview with you and tell you to
go
ahead and change the point of observation. Since your sati is strong
now, I
want to increase your level of concentration (samadhi) as a
balancing factor.
If you change the point of focus too often, samadhi will not arise. I would like
you also to test your sati by walking slowly and walking almost
normally.
Please report the results tomorrow. Eighth
Day
Achan: How is your mindfulness today? Student B:
In this morning’s practice, mindfulness
was not good at all. Nothing seemed to go right, and my practice was
falling
apart. I was thoroughly depressed. In the afternoon, however,
practice was a
good deal better. Achan: At this stage of training, it is not
unusual to have such a varied day. Meditators become extremely
sensitive to
altering conditions of mind and become easily upset, depressed or
worried. They
often veer to the other extreme and feel elated by a period of steady
mindfulness. Trainees often make judgments: this is good practice; this
is bad
practice. Both depression
and elation are forms of
clinging. One will
inevitably suffer when conditions change. Most of us usually wish an
unpleasant
condition to change and, of course, we want a happy state to remain.
You are
making too much effort, and strain naturally leads to discouragement
and
depression which, in turn, drains mindfulness. Elation, as well, pulls
you off-center
and similarly hampers development. The variance in your practice is
proof of
the fact of impermanence. Everything in life is uncertain. Though we
should
certainly try to use our intelligence and act skillfully in the mundane
world,
the truth is that we really cannot control events as much as we think
we can.
Most of us dimly perceive this truth, but it makes us uneasy to admit
it. We
are experts in submerging this fact of life most of the time. What you have
experienced first-hand proves many of the teachings of the Buddha.
Suffering
happens all the time, by itself. It is the suffering inherent in the
worldly
condition. Though we cannot fully control a given situation, we can
learn to
watch the mind. We can give up attachments and unrealistic expectations
for
ourselves and others. Enough clarity of mind must be present, however,
to do
this. This is one of the reasons we train in meditation. We can learn
from
every situation that presents itself. Disappointments arising in life
have
their value as teaching experience. We should learn the profound truth
that
disappointments carry: that life is truly uncertain. We should not,
however,
grow cynical, but rather try to be deeply aware at all times that life
is
change. Ninth
Day
Achan: Are you able to clearly focus in-out
breathing, sitting and touching? Student A:
Yes, every meditation object is quite
clear now. Achan: Fine. I want you to work at making each
object of attention as clear as all other objects which rise in
consciousness.
They are of equal value; they all
rise and fall away. Each phase of attention should be clear: the
contraction
and expansion of the abdomen, the sitting, and the touching. When
walking
mindfully, you should be able to clearly know the lifting of the heel,
the
rising of the foot, and the placing of the foot on the ground. The word
“clear”
means focusing on the present moment; noticing precisely how each of
these
movements arises, stays momentarily, and then falls away. The clarity
that I wish you to develop can be compared to standing by a lake and
watching
raindrops slowly fall into the water . . . watching each drop fall, the
rising
of the bubbles and circles . . . and its spreading out into
nothingness. It is
like walking in the bright sunlight and seeing spots appear before your
eyes—rising and falling away. It is with this precise clarity
that each object
should be known. Yesterday, I
asked you to test sati by walking slowly and walking faster. Were they
different? Can you follow mindful walking? Student A:
Both the slow and faster walking were
clear most of the time. Achan:
Slow walking is a training exercise in mindfulness. If you
can keep mindfulness when walking normally, then do so. It is like
riding a
bicycle. At first you must exercise great care and hold on with both
hands. As
skill develops you can relax and even let go with one hand . . . or you
might
let go with both hands. But you must know what you are doing! Having you
walk faster helps prevent laziness which often occurs with only slow
movements.
But I do not want you to walk in a natural gait for a long period. It
is easy
to become careless in practice and to “forget”
mindfulness. I think your sati
has ability, but I want you to take good care of it—to make
sure it is
constant. When you first
entered practice, your samadhi was much too strong, which is often the
case
when meditators work alone or are not guided properly. When samadhi
levels are
elevated, it often causes the meditator to feel drowsy, heavy, dull or
simply
peaceful. Mindfulness is weak when concentration levels are
raised. This is
important for the student to know. Testing
mindfulness was a way of correcting your overbalance of
concentration. From
now on, I have to carefully watch the progress of your meditation and
closely
control your practice. The way to build your samaadhi now—to
balance sati—is to
have you sit for longer periods of time. Be constantly mindful and
samaadhi
will arise of its own volition. At the present
time, there is no other work to do except to watch the appearing and
fading of
bodily and mental states.
Interview
with Student B
Achan:
Can you focus equally well on all phases of mindful
breathing, sitting and touching? Student B: The breathing in-and-out is always
clearer than the touching. Achan: Usually the perception of breathing is
always clearer. Breathing is a natural activity. It is constantly
there,
whether we focus on it or not. Our focusing on touching is done less
naturally;
it is more artificial. But mental “touching” is
most important. If a thought
were to arise to “touch” the mind, the meditator
will be able to know or be
aware of the thought. When you are aware of thinking, you will know:
“I am
thinking,” and you can observe how thoughts rise and fall
away. We use our mind
in the same way that we use it to focus on touching. And when there is
awareness of thoughts rising and falling, no grasping
occurs—and there is no
suffering. I would like you to focus mindfulness on touching until the
perception of touching is as clear as the perception of breathing. Do
you have
any questions? Student B: Yesterday I experienced a tremendous
sense of impermanence. It was overpowering and it was much stronger
than
anything I have ever experienced. Today it has recurred, but not to
such an
intense degree. Will it return again to its original strength? Achan:
If you would like it to recur because of curiosity or ego
involvement, it will not reappear. In fact, the desire to have it
return will
actually decrease the power of mindfulness. It will return naturally if
you
relax and do not think about past experiences. Just continue to develop
mindfulness. Do not feel that something is being lost. You are not
losing
anything at all. Keep to the middle way. There is resistance
occasionally to
moderating our feelings. We think we will miss certain experiences.
With the
cultivation of our practice, the natural development of higher stages
of
Insight will help loosen this particular attachment. Tenth
Day
Student A:
I have physical pain now almost all the
time. I decided to rest most of the day, and I wonder now if it was
correct to
surrender so easily to discomfort. Achan: Of course it is correct you rested; it
is
a physical necessity. The problem arises, however, that you had to
temporarily
break your schedule, slowing you down. Student A:
Yes. It took me two hours of walking
practice for mindfulness to resume its previous strength. Achan: Yes. It is as if one were paddling in a
boat, confronting the waves. Stop for an instant and the waves push you
back
all the time. Similarly, the meditator has to use considerable effort
to regain
lost territory. Physical problems arising in the course of meditation
practice
is a normal occurrence, and handling them is a test of progress in
mind-development. Pain is one kind of opponent or obstacle the
meditator has to
face and conquer. After all, we enter meditation training to understand
the
root cause of suffering. Certainly, bodily pain is one of the most
obvious
forms of suffering. Physical obstacles are preferable, however, to
mental
defilements: sometimes we battle with the mind—and lose. When
a physical
problem arises, rest will usually relieve the discomfort, and practice
can be
resumed. Student A:
When mindfulness is keen, I can
sometimes just look at the discomfort and see it as pure pain, without
an emotional
overlay . . . but usually I cannot be so objective. Achan: The man or woman who enters the first
stage of liberation, the Sotapanna, no longer identifies the physical
form as
being the self. No degree of intellectual affirmation can substitute
for the
experiential realization of this truth. We usually
learn more about the constructs of clinging when we are ill than in
periods of
good health. Indeed, good health is only a relative condition. We need
to pay
particular attention to bodily pain, as this is the body’s
natural condition,
though we are usually not aware of this truth, for distractions in
everyday
life cover this awareness. In Vipassana practice, however, we see the
true
nature of the body. The meditator
should try to understand the arising of physical feelings and emotional
states
associated with physical discomfort. I am not recommending that the
meditator
withstand torture—pain for pain’s
sake—but the more pain experienced at a
certain point in practice, the more suffering will be perceived.
Normally we
all fear pain, and so it is imperative that we observe pain and
confront our
fears. It is one of the objectives of Vipassana practice to deeply
penetrate
the truth of suffering. Every Buddha and
enlightened saint has to realize suffering and perceive its
significance
clearly in order to see the falling away of suffering. We find
instances in the Buddhist scripture where enlightenment was
realized at a
moment of extreme physical pain. The mind was primed and ready for
deliverance,
and at that moment the greatest possible focus and penetration
occurred. I know
it is difficult for you now, but we should not be unduly concerned with
physical discomfort at this point. We should rather content ourselves
and make
deliberate haste to practice so that suffering can be escaped for all
time. If
training is halted now, we will be born again with the five groups of
clinging—with corporeality, feeling, perception, mental
formations and
consciousness—and experience suffering again and again.
Confidence and commitment
to our training will support us during any period of crisis. There is
another kind of physical pain, pain which arises specifically in
Insight
practice. It appears to make us tired of pain, all pain, tired of
revolving in
the cycle of birth-and-death. The understanding of this kind of pain
strengthens our determination and we resolve to escape suffering once
and for
all. The Buddha
taught a method of spiritual development which can be termed
non-violent
practice. It refers to “killing oneself,” and it is
also applicable to
meditation training, that is, to bearing the various gradations of
pain,
frustration and other trials which beset a meditator walking the path. Visualize an
angry person who insults you. Receiving his insults are better than him
striking you. If he hits you, it is far better than him killing you. If
he
kills you, it is better than you “killing
yourself.” In this context, “killing
yourself” refers to the decision to fight and you killing the
other person. Our
defilement would follow us into future lives. When applied to
mind-development,
neither flee from pain nor torture yourself, thereby
“killing” your training
and wasting the opportunity to realize Insight. If we can make the
effort to
bear this discomfort now, we can move forward with training. In practical
application, regardless of how many times you must mindfully change
position to
relieve any discomfort, you should still resolutely continue
your practice and
not break the flow of mindfulness and concentration. Interview
with Student B
Student B:
I injured my leg slightly before
practice. When I focus on pain, it reduces a bit but never really goes
away. Achan: The mind is exaggerating the pain,
concentrating its force in a weakened area. There are
basically two ways to handle
pain. Continue to meditate and mindfully change position when
necessary. The
second method, however, requires well-developed sati and samadhi. One
continues
to meditate on the discomfort until the feeling of pain separates from
the
mind. It may be called a way of separating mental images. If the
meditator has
sufficient power of mind, one can take the mind away from the body.
Focus
attention on the pain itself and you will see it rise and fall. If the
pain
does not disappear, then observe the mind itself rising and falling.
When your
mindfulness is strong there will be nothing which
“sees” the pain and it will
disappear. I have noticed
that your sati is stronger in the morning than in the afternoon or
evening. I
recommend that you save some of your strength by changing position and
walking
in the morning. This reservoir of strength will aid in overcoming the
discomfort in the latter part of the day. When you first entered
practice, your
mindfulness was unevenly balanced. If you were making a retreat of
indefinite
length, this imbalance would he resolved and sati would equalize
throughout the
day and night. Do not let this pain weaken mindfulness.
Eleventh
Day
Student A:
In yesterday’s practice, I began to experience
hallucinations and sensory distortion. What is happening? Achan:
Strange phenomena appearing in practice occurs to almost
every meditator. It arises when mindfulness increases in
strength. This is a
crucial stage in your practice. If these visions do not appear at this
level,
you will confront them at another time. You are moving
through one stage and approaching a higher level of meditation. The gap
between
these two levels is too wide and the mind now has an opportunity to
play games.
The meditator may be so upset or shaken by these experiences that it
may be
very difficult to focus mindfulness. The student must clearly
understand that
these strange phenomena arise from one’s own mind. They are
temptations born to
lure the meditator from practice. When external phenomena are
no longer distracting
to the meditator, then imagination begins its attack by creating
pictures or
other distortions. If you cling to these visions, most assuredly
mindfulness
will be weakened or even destroyed. This is also a test for
you—to determine if
you have sufficient understanding or control of your mind. Weird
phenomena may
arise at any point in practice when sati strengthens, but visions occur
most
frequently during the sitting exercise, for this is a most concentrated
position. If you “see” pictures when your eyes are
closed and fear or agitation
arises, practice by opening your eyes until you feel stronger. Relax
and do not
strain. Over-exertion will only increase tension and create more
pictures. If
pictures keep flooding your mind and mindfulness cannot keep pace, try
to take
longer breaths. When walking, if you encounter sensory distortion,
increase
your pace. If you do not follow this method of coping with visions, you
will
have a most difficult time re-establishing mindfulness. Your attention
should be directed toward your practice, that is, focusing mindfulness
on all
phenomena arising in consciousness, and then letting them go. Even if
you see
the Buddha or Christ, do not let anything whatsoever divert your
attention. Do
not think about previous meditation experiences. You will be distracted
again.
They have come and gone. It is crucial
that the meditator understands the reasons for strange phenomena
appearing. It
is equally important that instructions given by the teacher be followed
carefully. Many meditators who do not have competent guidance entirely
abandon
practice when they encounter these visions. They fear the past and they
fear
the future. When I was
teaching in Thailand, meditators who reached this stage would often
visualize
ghosts or people threatening them with knives. They would
completely lose
control of themselves. Becoming hysterical, they would run away from
the
temple. I would have to find them and try to persuade them to re-enter
practice. If they did not resume training, they would have surrendered
to their
anxiety. When the
student of mind-development gains the skill of cutting off external
disturbances by watching the rise and fall of phenomena, soon internal
temptations will also be “cut off”—and
when you cut off everything, freedom appears. The student
who is familiar with every step in training will know how to approach
any
problem. When mindfulness is strong and skillfully applied, no
disturbance
will be too bothersome. Whenever one sees, hears, touches, tastes,
smells or
thinks, the skilled and mindful meditator will be able to detect its
rise and
fall and not be attached to any situation.
Twelfth
Day
Student A: My breathing is very shallow now and
sometimes I can hardly catch my breath. I become frightened. I am not
sure if I
can continue to practice. Achan: This is a normal occurrence in the last
moment before you make a final decision to enter deep meditation. When
the mind
begins to separate from the idea of identifying the body as the self,
it is
natural to experience these unsettling conditions of mind. As the power
of the mind gradually strengthens and reaches higher stages, many
different
kinds of fear will appear to the meditator. Meditators feel that
everything
seems to be out of control . . . that something is being lost. The
breath
becomes almost imperceptible, and one naturally may panic and think:
“I want to
breathe.” When fear occurs, immediately collect yourself and
focus accurately
on the feeling and it will disappear. If you stop
practice now you will meet these same difficulties any time
training is
resumed. You should try to continue with your training even when
mindfulness is
not very clear. Everyone has the same feelings. It is an inevitable
part of
practice. [Same student,
late evening] Achan: You look anxious. Student A: I feel afraid so much of the time now.
It
is a strange kind of fear . . . an unnamed fear. I sometimes find
myself
weeping and I have all the symptoms of anxiety. It is very difficult to
practice. Achan:
Our person is composed of five groups of clinging. They
are sometimes called Mara, or opponents. Once awakened, they are
ever-ready to
assault the meditator and to destroy all efforts in meditation. Many
aspects of
Mara will appear in your consciousness. Some of these disturbances are
necessary
tests in the development of Insight. Defilements, often in the form of
hatred,
impatience and boredom, may rise sharply to test the power and
endurance of the
meditator. Anxiety, too, is a way of testing the strength of
mindfulness. It is
a pitched battle between that part of the mind wishing to continue
practice and
the opposing force tempting you to abandon training. The latter is
giving you
great feelings of anxiety. You have to be victorious over these
temptations. Do
you feel you can conquer your fears? Student A:
Sometimes I think I am not strong enough
to face these difficulties . . . Achan: Before you entered practice you made a
commitment to follow the path of the Buddha—that is, you
dedicated yourself to
the quest for enlightenment. This is the one and only reason for
entering
Vipassana training. It is a serious commitment and not for the
weak-hearted.
You can be confident and put your heart at ease that the
Buddha’s teachings can
guide you, and the Dharma is protecting you from harm. If you have good
intentions and are willing to place confidence in the truth of the
Buddhist
teaching as the path to end all suffering, you need have no cause to
fear. To the best of
my ability, I will help you solve any problems which may appear in your
practice. I have even seen cases where meditators had nervous
breakdowns.
Fortunately, they were willing to cooperate—to make the
effort to continue
training. Working together, their problems were solved. Although it is
uncomfortable for you now, it is really a sign of your progress. Some
meditators practice for an entire month and do not have problems of
fear arise.
These difficulties are not monumental. I, myself, have experienced them
and
many of my students, as well. I asked you
before to come and see me at once if you were afraid or shocked by some
experience and could not resolve the problem yourself. You should have
actually
told me immediately, rather than spend needless time worrying. But it
is all
right. Don’t push too hard. Relax. If you can
pass through this particular period, you will not encounter these
particular
disturbances again. Resolve to go ahead with your practice. It is fear
that is
causing you to hesitate. It is fear that will keep you from
progressing. There
are many difficulties. The Future Buddha himself almost lost to Mara.
Do you
understand? Are you all right? Student A: Yes. I am reassured. Thank you.
Thirteenth
Day
Achan: I feel that your concentration and
mindfulness are strong now, and that all the conditions have been
prepared for
both of you to make a special effort in your practice. This test is a
natural
part of the strengthening process, a natural development in
ascertaining how
well any skill is being developed. Do you both feel confident enough in
your
training to make this effort? Student A: Yes. Student B: Yes. Achan: These are my instructions to you. Place
focus, as accurately as possible, on acknowledging the rising and
falling of
phenomena. Using the analogy of the high jumper preparing to leap, the
meditator similarly consolidates all his or her energies into a
singular
effort. The high jumper places his energy into his legs and body,
establishes
his will, makes a commitment and runs fast. Just work
naturally, in a relaxed manner. If a higher stage of awareness is born
it will
be a natural result of your practice; if it does not manifest at this
time, it
will do so in the future with continued practice. After the trainee
begins to
practice, there is no way of predicting when these experiences will
begin. It
may take five minutes, a few hours, or nothing may happen. Remember, if
you
wish for something to happen, it is an ego-play. Do not weaken your
sati by
wishing for an “experience.” Other meditators feel
so happy at this stage they
become careless. Be watchful. Use your intelligence. Stay as
even-minded as
possible. It is
best to forewarn you, however, that occurrences of an unexpected nature
may
well appear in your meditation at this time. The meditator, as with the
athlete, may suddenly be distracted and find his mind pulling him back.
You
must be willing to stand firm. You must be willing to
“die”; in fact, you
should think of yourself as being dead. If you do not already think of
yourself
in these terms, a particular confrontation at this point may be
devastating.
You will find yourself running away. But if you feel your whole life is
over—really over and empty—you will be able to face
any situation. This mind,
again, will often make an all-out attack, hoping to remove you from
your place
of meditation. In order to
prepare you for handling any problem which might occur, I will tell you
what
has happened to other meditators. I tell you these incidences not to
frighten
you, but to prepare you. Of course, do not think that you will
experience
exactly the same phenomena. Whatever happens, happens. Just be
wide-awake and
alert at all times. Do not lose mindfulness. Many
meditators report at this stage of practice the appearance of strange,
even
terrifying, phenomena. They report fearing their heart will stop
beating; or
their breath, as it becomes lighter and lighter, will disappear. Others
have
reported actually believing they were about to drown. Or they see a
dead body
begin to decay in front of their eyes. Alarmed and losing control,
meditators
often leave practice abruptly. If you
experience fear or other emotions which cannot be controlled, stop
practice
immediately and see me for further instructions. If you feel you are
going to
“die,” then let everything go. You will
“die” for a time, and will then return
to normal consciousness. When you return to your normal state you will
experience a particular understanding and joy which will
suffuse body and
mind. It cannot be described . . . it will never be forgotten. This “dying”
is a normal condition of body-and-mind which appears when one focuses
precisely
on the rising and falling away of phenomena. As focusing becomes more
powerful,
the momentum quickens until rising and falling appear to
“stop.” One’s practice
begins to mature at this stage. This is a
crucial stage in your training. Give up the idea, however, of gaining
anything.
Just work naturally. Stay in the middle path.
Fourteenth
Day
Achan: I asked you both to make a special
effort
yesterday in your practice. Do you have anything to report? Student A: I noticed a very bright, white
light—as
if someone had opened the door. It stayed for quite a while, and then
gradually
faded. Last night, faces of dying people flashed into my mind. This
morning, I
felt my body to be extremely fragile, like glass, and a deep sense of
dissolution
appeared. The only other awareness is that I seem to have dropped
naming
everything: this is good; this is bad. I am just aware of seeing, or
hearing,
etc. Nothing else happened. Student B:
I had a strange meditation lasting about
an hour. At first I felt engulfed in absolute silence, and then I found
myself
encased in clouds. There was a sensation of movement, and I seemed to
forget my
body. Colors changed from brown to gray to white. I felt as if I was in
a space
found inside an arena, not that I could see one . . . and then,
suddenly, a
battle started in my head . . . I could feel my face going through all
kinds of
contortions. My head began swinging around, being pulled in every
direction, as
though two adversaries were fighting for control. I could not stop the
battle
or the movement. A few times I felt as though I was going to die. My
eyes
suddenly switched shut and then . . . a flash of light . . . and I
would be
back again in the battleground. The flash occurred again . . .
and then
everything finally died away. After that episode, I was completely
exhausted. I
could not focus sati. Samadhi was impossible . . . nothing worked. I
felt very
tired and only now am I regaining my strength. Achan (to
Student B): You are not moving through the entire stage.
If all the factors of energy, confidence, samaadhi, sati and wisdom
were
concentrated into one force, it would have carried you through to the
next
level. You were exhausted because the power of sati was not
sufficiently
developed at this time. This experiment has been a useful test of your
sati. It
serves to demonstrate what still remains to be done in your
practice. Be
confident that if you continue to practice as diligently and
single-mindedly as
you have done, you will accomplish this stage. The flash of
light you experienced—and the immediate return to the
battleground—suggests
that you hit something, and it prevented you from going to the next
stage. If
you continue to practice, these flashes of light will occur more
frequently. As
I mentioned previously, when sati is powerful, you will feel that
suddenly
something “turns off.” At first this experience may
last for only a few
seconds. Some meditators who practice constantly may be in this state
for
twenty-four hours, or even longer. It is as if one died and then
returned to
life. The longer one “dies” the more profound the
understanding of this
particular experience when you return to normal consciousness. Practicing
Insight meditation is like walking in the dark. The meaning of darkness
here
signifies being surrounded by greed, hatred and confusion. One often
feels
during practice that no good exits in the world at all. All the
defilements
seem to engulf the meditator. When these flashes first occur, and
remain only
an instant, nothing can be “seen” or understood
very clearly. But if you
continue your training, the flashing becomes brighter. As your mind
brightens
you will be able to reach out of the darkness. And when the mind begins
to
brighten, you will begin to understand, and begin to see things as they
truly
are. You will start making your ascent to higher levels of Insight. Student A:
I recall seeing bright flashes of light
during an illness. It was accompanied by a high fever and I was
semi-conscious
. . . I really thought I was dying. Other people, too, have recounted
similar
experiences during a moment of great pain. People who have been
clinically dead
for a time report seeing a great light. Achan: Yes. Any time when a person feels
utterly
helpless, during serious illness, for example, when death seems
imminent, sati
is automatically focused on that experience. There is a
story which illustrates such an experience. The young son of a wealthy
merchant
was desperately ill. The father, being more concerned about his wealth,
barred
all visitors from seeing his son inside the mansion, for he did not
want
strangers to see his great estate. He placed the boy’s bed on
the balcony. His
son slowly grew worse. The lad lay on the balcony, his face turned
toward the
wall, and resigned himself to death. Day after day passed, but he did
not die.
One day the Buddha came near the mansion on his almsround. Seeing one
enduring
such suffering, the Buddha focused all his compassion towards
the dying youth.
The boy noticed a very bright light cast on the wall and wondered if
the sun
was shining. He turned around and saw the radiant form of the
Enlightened One.
In that very moment he placed his faith in the Buddha and, smiling,
died
peacefully. Some see the light and end their life; others see the light
but
recover from illness. Now that this
intensive period of meditation is drawing to a close, I want you to
continue
with your training as much as possible. Do not depend on the special
circumstances
and environment found in a meditation center, but try to practice
everywhere.
Be ever-mindful. Test yourself daily, all the time. Make mindfulness
first in
your life—everything will naturally follow. Mindfulness is
the only protection in the world. Insight is the special understanding
which
will transform your life. It is the end of birth and death. It is the
end of
craving. It is the emancipation from all attachments, from all bondage,
and is
the realization of the highest happiness. It is the end
of the journey. Biography of
Achan Sobin S. Namto The Venerable
Phra Maha Sobin S. Namto was born in Thailand in 1931. At sixteen, he
became a
novice at Wat Mahadhatu temple in Bangkok and was ordained a bhikkhu
(monk) in
1953. While still a novice, he completed his training in both
Dharma and Pali
studies, and then chose to pursue studies in Abhidharma and Vipassana
meditation. Over a twelve-year period he had four Dharma teachers, six
Pali
professors, three Abhidharma teachers and five Vipassana instructors.
He
studied in Burma with three meditation masters, as well as training at
the
temple of the famed meditation master, Mahasi Sayadaw. In order to
cultivate his own practice of meditation preparatory to teaching, he
then
entered into periods of retreat, living in total seclusion for seven,
three and
four months, respectively. He then became an instructor in Dharma,
Abhidharma
and Vipassana meditation at Wat Mahadhatu, as well as teaching in other
temples. Achan Sobin
was invited by the Sangha of Laos to be an instructor in Vipassana
meditation
from 1960 to 1962. Returning to Thailand, he became the
founder-principal and
instructor in Abhidharma and Vipassana meditation at Abhidhamma
Vidyakorn
School in Phuket Province. In 1972, the Venerable Phra Dhammakosacharn, head of the First Division of Missionary Activities, with the approval of the Sangha Council of Thailand, selected him to be Chief Incumbent of Wat Thai, the first Thai temple in America. The Sangha, sensing the growing interest in Buddhism and meditation in America, confirmed his appointment as a monk highly competent in both knowledge and ability to effectively represent Buddha-Dharma in the United States. Achan Sobin is the author of three books on vipassana meditation in English, as well as a book on -- ¤¤¤
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