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Upasika Kee Nanayon Translated from the
Thai by Thanissaro Bhikkhu Wheels No: 373 /
374 Copyright © Kandy; Buddhist
Publication Society, (1995) This booklet has been abridged by the
Vipassana Dhura Meditation Society. For
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such. The
Practice in Brief
A Basic Order in Life Continuous Practice Every In-and-Out Breath Taking a Stance The Details of Pain Aware Right at Awareness The Pure Present The Deceits of Knowing Sabbe Dhamma Anatta Going Out Cold Reading the Heart The Practice in Brief Those who
practice the Dhamma should
train themselves to understand in the following stages: The
training that
is easy to learn, gives immediate results, and is suitable for every
time,
every place, for people of every age and either sex, is to study in the
school
of this body -- a fathom long, a cubit wide, and a span thick -- with
its
perceiving mind in charge. This body has many things, ranging from the
crude to
the subtle, that are well worth knowing. The steps
of the training: 1. To
begin with,
know that the body is composed of various physical properties, the
major ones
being the properties of earth, water, fire, and wind; the minor ones
being the
aspects that adhere to the major ones: things like color, smell, shape,
etc. These
properties
are unstable (inconstant), stressful, and unclean. If you look into
them
deeply, you will see that there's no substance to them at all. They are
simply
impersonal conditions, with nothing worth calling "me" or
"mine." When you can clearly perceive the body in these terms, you
will be able to let go of any clinging or attachment to it as an
entity, your
self, someone else, this or that. 2. The
second
step is to deal with mental phenomena (feelings, perceptions,
thought-formations, and consciousness). Focus on keeping track of the
truth
that these are characterized by arising, persisting, and then
disbanding. In
other words, their nature is to arise and disband, arise and disband,
repeatedly. When you investigate to see this truth, you will be able to
let go
of your attachments to mental phenomena as entities, as your self,
someone
else, this or that. 3.
Training on the level of practice
doesn't simply mean studying, listening, or reading. You have to
practice so as
to see clearly with your own mind in the following steps: a. Start
out by brushing aside all
external concerns and turn to look inside at your own mind until you
can know
in what ways it is clear or murky, calm or unsettled. The way to do
this is to
have mindfulness and self-awareness in charge as you keep aware of the
body and
mind until you've trained the mind to stay firmly in a state of
normalcy, i.e.,
neutrality. b. Once
the mind can stay in a state
of normalcy, you will see mental formations or preoccupations in their
natural
state of arising and disbanding. The mind will be empty, neutral, and
still --
neither pleased nor displeased -- and will see physical and mental
phenomena as
they arise and disband naturally, of their own accord. c. When
the knowledge that there is
no self to any of these things becomes thoroughly clear, you will meet
with
something that lies further inside, beyond all suffering and stress,
free from
the cycles of change -- deathless -- free from birth as well as death,
since all
things that take birth must by nature age, grow ill, and die. d. When
you see this truth clearly,
the mind will be empty, not holding onto anything. It won't even assume
itself
to be a mind or anything at all. In other words, it won't latch onto
itself as
being anything of any sort. All that remains is a pure condition of
Dhamma. e. Those
who see
this pure condition of Dhamma in full clarity are bound to grow
disenchanted
with the repeated sufferings of life. When they know the truth of the
world and
the Dhamma throughout, they will see the results clearly, right in the
present, that there exists that which lies beyond all
suffering. They
will know this without having to ask or take it on
faith from anyone, for the Dhamma is paccattam, i.e., something really to be known for
oneself. Those who
have seen this truth within themselves will attest to it always. A
Basic Order in Life The most
important thing in the daily life of a person who practices the Dhamma
is to
keep to the precepts and to care for them more than you care for your
life -- to
maintain them in a way that the Noble Ones would praise. If you don't
have this
sort of regard for the precepts, then the vices that run counter to
them will
become your everyday habits... Meditators
who
see that the breaking of a precept is something trifling and
insignificant spoil
their entire practice. If you can't practice even these basic,
beginning levels
of the Dhamma, it will ruin all the qualities you'll be trying to
develop in
the later stages of the practice. This is why you have to stick to the
precepts
as your basic foundation and to keep a lookout for anything in your
behavior
that falls short of them. Only then will you be able to benefit from
your
practice for the sake of eliminating your sufferings with greater and
greater
precision. If
you simply act
in line with the cravings and desires swelling out of the sense of self
that
has no fear of the fires of defilement, you'll have to suffer both in
this life
and in lives to come. If you don't have a sense of conscience -- a
sense of
shame at the thought of doing shoddy actions, and a fear of their
consequences -- your practice can only deteriorate day by day... When
people live
without any order to their lives -- without even the basic order that
comes with
the precepts -- there's no way they can attain purity. We have to
examine
ourselves: In what ways at present are we breaking our precepts in
thought,
word, or deed? If we simply let things pass and aren't intent on
examining
ourselves to see the harm that comes from breaking the precepts and
following
the defilements, our practice can only sink lower and lower. Instead of
extinguishing defilements and suffering, it will simply succumb to the
power of
craving. If this is the case, what damage is done? How much freedom
does the
mind lose? These are things we have to learn for ourselves. When we do,
our
practice of self-inspection in higher matters will get solid results
and won't
go straying off into nonsense. For this reason, whenever craving or
defilement
shows itself in any way in any of our actions, we have to catch hold of
it and
examine what's going on inside the mind. Once
we're aware
with real mindfulness and discernment, we'll see the poison and power
of the
defilements. We'll feel disgust for them and want to extinguish them as
much as
we can. But if we use our defilements to examine things, they'll say
everything
is fine. The same as when we're predisposed to liking a certain person:
Even if
he acts badly, we say he's good. If he acts wrongly, we say he's right.
This is
the way the defilements are. They say that everything we do is right
and throw
all the blame on other people, other things. So we can't trust it --
this sense
of "self" in which craving and defilement lord it over the heart. We
can't trust it at all... The
violence of
defilement, or this sense of self, is like that of a fire burning a
forest or
burning a house. It won't listen to anyone, but simply keeps burning
away,
burning away inside of you. And that's not all. It's always out to set
fire to
other people, too. The
fires of
suffering, the fires of defilement consume all those who don't
contemplate
themselves or who don't have any means of practice for putting them
out. People
of this sort can't withstand the power of the defilements, can't help
but
follow along wherever their cravings lead them. The moment they're
provoked,
they follow in line with these things. This is why the sensations in
the mind
when provoked by defilement are very important, for they can lead you
to do
things with no sense of shame, no fear for the consequences of doing
evil at all -- which means that you're sure to break your precepts. Once
you've
followed the defilements, they feel really satisfied -- like arsonists
who feel
gleeful when they've set other people's places on fire. As soon as
you've
called somebody something vile or spread some malicious gossip, the
defilements
really like it. Your sense of self really likes it, because acting in
line with
defilement like that gives it real satisfaction. As a consequence, it
keeps
filling itself with the vices that run counter to the precepts, falling
into
hell in this very lifetime without realizing it. So take a good look at
the
violence the defilements do to you, to see whether you should keep
socializing
with them, to see whether you should regard them as your friends or
your enemies... As soon
as any
wrong views or ideas come out of the mind, we have to analyze them and
turn
around so as to catch sight of the facts within us. No matter what
issues the
defilements raise, focusing on the faults of others, we have to turn
around and
look within. When we realize our own faults and can come to
our senses: That's
where our study of the Dhamma, our practice of the
Dhamma, shows its real rewards. Continuous
Practice The
passage for
reflection on the four requisites (clothing, food, shelter, and
medicine) is a
fine pattern for contemplation, but we never actually get down to
putting it to
use. We're taught to memorize it in the beginning not simply to pass
the time
of day or so that we can talk about it every now and then, but so that
we can
use it to contemplate the requisites until we really know them with our
own
mindfulness and discernment. If we actually get down to contemplating
in line
with the established pattern, our minds will become much less
influenced by unwise
thoughts. But it's the rare person who genuinely makes this a
continuous
practice... For the most part we're not interested. We don't feel like
contemplating this sort of thing. We'd much rather contemplate whether
this or
that food will taste good or not, and if it doesn't taste good, how to
fix it
so that it will. That's the sort of thing we like to contemplate. Try to
see the
filthiness of food and of the physical properties in general, to see
their
emptiness of any real entity or self. There's nothing of any substance
to the
physical properties of the body, which are all rotten and decomposing.
The body
is like a restroom over a cesspool. We can decorate it on the outside
to make
it pretty and attractive, but on the inside it's full of the most
horrible,
filthy things. Whenever we excrete anything, we ourselves are repelled
by it;
yet even though we're repelled by it, it's there inside us, in our
intestines --
decomposing, full of worms, awful smelling. There's just the flimsiest
membrane
covering it up, yet we fall for it and hold tight to it. We don't see
the
constant decomposition of this body, in spite of the filth and smells
it sends
out... The
reason we're
taught to memorize the passage for reflecting on the requisites, and to
use it
to contemplate, is so that we'll see the inconstancy of the body, to
see that
there's no "self" to any of it or to any of the mental phenomena we
sense with every moment . . . Every
In-and-out Breath Try
keeping your awareness with the
breath to see what the still mind is like. It's very simple, all the
rules have
been laid out, but when you actually try to do it, something resists.
It's
hard. But when you let your mind think 108 or 1009 things, no matter
what, it's
all easy. It's not hard at all. Try and see if you can engage
your mind with
the breath in the same way it's been engaged with the defilements. Try engaging it with the breath and
see what happens. See
if you can disperse the defilements with every in-and-out breath. Why
is it
that the mind can stay engaged with the defilements all day long and
yet go for
entire days without knowing how heavy or subtle the breath is at all? So try
and be observant. The bright,
clear awareness that stems from staying focused on the mind at all
times:
Sometimes a strong sensory contact comes and can make it blur and fade
away
with no trouble at all. But if you can keep hold of the breath as a
reference
point, that state of mind can be more stable and sure, more insured. It
has two
fences around it. If there's only one fence, it can easily break. Taking
a Stance Normally
the mind
isn't willing to stop and look, to stop and know itself, which is why
we have
to keep training it continually so that it will settle down from its
restlessness and grow still. Let your desires and thought-processes
settle
down. Let the mind take its stance in a state of normalcy, not liking
or
disliking anything. To reach a basic level of emptiness and freedom,
you first
have to take a stance. If you don't have a stance against which to
measure
things, progress will be very difficult. If your practice is
hit-or-miss -- a
bit of that, a little of this -- you won't get any results. So the mind
first
has to take a stance. When you
take a
stance that the mind can maintain in a state of normalcy, don't go
slipping off
into the future. Have the mind know itself in the stance of the
present:
"Right now it's in a state of normalcy. No likes or dislikes have
arisen
yet. It hasn't created any issues. It's not being disturbed by a desire
for
this or that." Then look
on in
to the basic level of the mind to see if it's as normal and empty as it
should
be. If you're really looking inside, really aware inside, then that
which is
looking and knowing is mindfulness and discernment in and of itself. You don't need to search for anything
anywhere else to come
and do your looking for you. As soon as you stop to look, stop to know
whether
or not the mind is in a state of normalcy, then if it's normal you'll
know
immediately that it's normal. If it's not, you'll know immediately that
it's
not. Take care
to keep
this awareness going. If you can keep knowing like this continuously,
the mind
will be able to keep its stance continuously as well. As soon as the
thought
occurs to you to check things out, you'll immediately stop to look,
stop to
know, without any need to go searching for knowledge from anywhere
else. You
look, you know, right there at the mind and can tell whether or not
it's empty
and still. Once you see that it is, then you investigate to see how
it's
empty, how it's
still. It's not the case that once it's empty, that's the end of the
matter;
once it's still, that's the end of the matter. That's not the
case at all. You
have to keep watch of things, you have to investigate
at all times. Only then will you see the changing -- the arising and
disbanding -- occurring in that emptiness, that stillness, that state
of normalcy. The
Details of Pain To lead
your
daily life by keeping constant supervision over the mind is a way of
learning
what life is for. It's a way of learning how we can act so as to rid
ourselves
more and more of suffering and stress -- because the suffering and
stress caused
by defilement, attachment, and craving are sure to take all sorts of
forms.
Only by being aware with true mindfulness and discernment can we
comprehend
them for what they are. Otherwise, we'll simply live obliviously, going
wherever events will lead us. This is why mindfulness and discernment
are tools
for reading yourself, for testing yourself within so that you won't be
careless
or complacent, oblivious to the fact that suffering is basically what
life is
all about. This
point is
something we really have to comprehend so that we can live without
being
oblivious. The pains and discontent that fill our bodies and minds all
show us
the truths of inconstancy, stress, and not-selfness within us. If you
contemplate what's going on inside until you can get down to the
details,
you'll see the truths that appear within and without, all of which come
down to
inconstancy, stress, and not-selfness. But the delusion basic to our
nature
will see everything wrongly -- as constant, easeful, and self -- and so
make us
live obliviously, even though there is nothing to guarantee how long
our lives
will last. Our
dreams and
delusions make us forget that we live in the midst of a mass of pain
and stress -- the stress of defilements, the pain of birth. Birth,
aging, illness, and
death: All of these are painful and stressful, in the midst of
instability and
change. They're things we have no control over, for they must circle
around in
line with the laws of kamma and the
defilements we've been amassing all along. Life that floats along in
the round
of rebirth is thus nothing but stress and pain. If we can
find a
way to develop our mindfulness and discernment, they'll be able to cut
the
round of rebirth so that we won't have to keep wandering on. They'll
help us
know that birth is painful, aging is painful, illness is painful, death
is
painful, and that these are all things that defilement, attachment, and
craving
keep driving through the cycles of change. So as
long as we
have the opportunity, we should study the truths appearing throughout
our body
and mind, and we'll come to know that the elimination of stress and
pain, the
elimination of defilement, is a function of our practice of the Dhamma.
If we
don't practice the Dhamma, we'll keep floating along in the round of
rebirth
that is so drearily repetitious -- repetitious in its birth, aging,
illness, and
death, driven on by defilement, attachment, and craving, causing us
repeated
stress, repeated pain. Living beings for the most part don't know where
these
stresses and pains come from or what they come from, because they've
never
studied them, never contemplated them, so they stay stupid and deluded,
wandering on and on without end... If we can
stop
and be still, the mind will have a chance to be free, to contemplate
its
sufferings, and to let them go. This will give it a measure of peace,
because
it will no longer want anything out of the round of rebirth -- for it
sees that
there's nothing lasting to it, that it's simply stress over and over
again.
Whatever you grab hold of is stress. This is why you need mindfulness
and
discernment to know and see things for yourself, so that you can
supervise the
mind and keep it calm, without letting it fall victim to temptation. This
practice is
something of the highest importance. People who don't study or practice
the
Dhamma have wasted their birth as human beings, because they're born
deluded
and simply stay deluded. But if we study the Dhamma, we'll become wise
to
suffering and know the path of practice for freeing ourselves from it... Once we
follow
the right path, the defilements won't be able to drag us around, won't
be able
to burn us, because we're the ones
burning them away. We'll come to
realize that the more we can burn them away, the more strength of mind
we'll
gain. If we let the defilements burn us, the mind will be sapped of its
strength, which is why this is something you have to be very careful
about.
Keep trying to burn away the defilements in your every activity, and
you'll be
storing up strength for your mindfulness and discernment so that
they'll be
brave in dealing with all sorts of suffering and pain. You must
come to see
the world as nothing but stress. There's no real ease to it at all. The
awareness we gain from mindfulness and discernment will make us
disenchanted
with life in the world because it will see things for what they are in
every
way, both within us and without. The
entire world
is nothing but an affair of delusion, an affair of suffering. People
who don't
know the Dhamma, don't practice the Dhamma -- no matter what their
status or
position in life -- lead deluded, oblivious lives. When they fall ill
or are about
to die, they're bound to suffer enormously because they haven't taken
the time
to understand the defilements that burn their hearts and minds in
everyday
life. Yet if we make a constant practice of studying and contemplating
ourselves as our everyday activity, it will help free us from all sorts
of
suffering and distress. And when this is the case, how can we not
want
to practice? Only
intelligent
people, though, will be able to stick with the practice. Foolish people
won't
want to bother. They'd much rather follow the defilements than burn
them away.
To practice the Dhamma you need a certain basic level of intelligence
-- enough
to have seen at least some thing of the
stresses and sufferings that come from defilement. Only then can your
practice
progress. And no matter how difficult it gets, you'll have to keep
practicing
on to the end. This
practice
isn't something you do from time to time, you know. You have to keep at
it
continuously throughout life. Even if it involves so much physical pain
or
mental anguish that tears are bathing your cheeks, you have to keep
with the
chaste life because you're playing for real. If you don't follow the
chaste
life, you'll get mired in heaps of suffering and flame. So you have to
learn
your lessons from pain. Try to contemplate it until you can understand
it and
let it go, and you'll gain one of life's greatest rewards. Don't
think that
you were born to gain this or that level of comfort. You were born to
study
pain and the causes of pain, and to follow the practice that frees you
from
pain. This is the most important thing there is. Everything else is
trivial and
unimportant. What's important all lies with the practice. * * * Don't
think that
the defilements will go away easily. When they don't come in blatant
forms, they
come in subtle ones -- and the dangers of the subtle ones are hard to
see. Your
contemplation will have to be subtle, too, if you want to get rid of
them.
You'll come to realize that this practice of the Dhamma, in which we
contemplate to get to the details inside us, is like sharpening our
tools so
that, when stress and suffering arise, we can weaken them and cut them
away. If
your mindfulness and discernment are brave, the defilements will have
to lose
out to them. But if you don't train your mindfulness and discernment to
be
brave, the defilements will crush you to pieces. We
were born
to do battle with the defilements and to strengthen our mindfulness and
discernment. We'll
find that the worth of
our practice will grow higher and higher because in our everyday life
we've
done continuous battle with the stresses and pains caused by
defilement,
craving, and temptation all along -- so that the defilements will grow
thin and
our mindfulness and discernment stronger. We'll sense within ourselves
that the
mind isn't as troubled and restless as it used to be. It's grown
peaceful and
calm. The stresses and sufferings of defilement, attachment, and
craving have
grown weaker. Even though we haven't yet wiped them out completely,
they've
grown continually weaker -- because we don't feed them. We don't give
them
shelter. We do what we can to weaken them so that they grow thinner and
thinner
each time. And we
have to be
brave in contemplating stress and pain, because when we don't feel any
great
suffering we tend to get complacent. But when the pains and sufferings
in our
body and mind grow sharp and biting, we have to use our mindfulness and
discernment to be strong. Don't let your spirits be weak. Only then will you be able to do away
with your sufferings
and pains. We have
to learn
our lessons from pain so that ultimately the mind can gain its freedom
from it,
instead of being weak and losing out to it all of the time. We have to
be brave
in doing battle with it to the ultimate extreme -- until we reach the
point where
we can let it go. Pain is something always present in this conglomerate
of body
and mind. It's here for us to see with every moment. If we contemplate
it till
we know all its details, we can then make it our sport: seeing that the
pain is
the pain of natural conditions and not our pain. This is something we have to
research so as to get to
the details: that it's not our pain, it's
the pain of the aggregates [form, feeling, perception,
thought-formations, and
consciousness]. Knowing in this way means that we can separate out the
properties -- the properties of matter and those of the mind -- to see
how they
interact with one another, how they change. It's something really
fascinating... Watching pain is a way of building up lots of
mindfulness and
discernment. But if
you focus
on pleasure and ease, you'll simply stay deluded like people in
general. They
get carried away with the pleasure that comes from watching or
listening to the
things they like -- but then when pain comes to their bodies and minds
to the point
where tears are bathing their cheeks, think of how much they suffer!
And then
they have to be parted from their loved ones, which makes it even
worse. But
those of us who practice the Dhamma don't need to be deluded like that,
because
we know and see with every moment that only stress arises, only stress
persists, only stress passes away. Aside from stress, nothing arises;
aside
from stress, nothing passes away. This is there for us to perceive with
every
moment. If we contemplate it, we'll see it. So we
can't let
ourselves be oblivious. This is what the truth is, and we have to study
it so
as to know it -- especially in our life of the practice. We have to
contemplate
stress all the time to see its every manifestation. The arahants live
without
being oblivious because they know the truth at all times, and their
hearts are
clean and pure. As for us with our defilements, we have to keep trying,
because
if we continually supervise the mind with mindfulness and discernment,
we'll be
able to keep the defilements from making it dirty and obscured. Even if
it does
become obscured in any way, we'll be able to remove that obscurity and
make the
mind empty and free. This is
the
practice that weakens all the defilements, attachments, and cravings
within us.
It's because of this practice of the Dhamma that our lives will become
free. So
I ask you to keep working at the practice without being complacent,
because if
in whatever span of life is left to you, you keep trying to the full
extent of
your abilities, you'll gain the mindfulness and discernment to see the
facts
within yourself, and be able to let go -- free from any sense of self,
free from
any sense of self -- continuously. Aware
Right at Awareness The mind,
if
mindfulness and awareness are watching over it, won't meet with any
suffering
as the result of its actions. If suffering does arise, we'll be immediately aware of
it and able to put it
out. This is one point of the practice we can work at constantly. And
we can
test ourselves by seeing how refined and subtle our all-around
awareness is
inside the mind. Whenever the mind slips away and goes out to receive
external
sensory contact: Can it maintain its basic stance of mindfulness or
internal
awareness? The practice we need to work at in our everyday life is to
have
constant mindfulness, constant all-around present awareness like this.
This is
something we work at in every posture: sitting, standing, walking, and
lying
down. Make sure that your mindfulness stays continuous. Living in
this
world -- the mental and physical phenomena of these five aggregates --
gives us
plenty to contemplate. We must try to watch them, to contemplate them,
so that
we can understand them -- because the truths we must learn how to read
in this
body and mind are here to be read with every moment. We don't have to
get
wrapped up with any other extraneous themes, because all the themes we
need are
right here in the body and mind. As long as we can keep the mind
constantly
aware all around, we can contemplate them. If you
contemplate mental and physical events to see how they arise and
disband right
in the here and now, and don't get involved with external things --
like sights
making contact with the eyes, or sounds with the ears -- then there
really
aren't a lot of issues. The mind can be at normalcy, at equilibrium --
calm and
undisturbed by defilement or the stresses that come from sensory
contact. It
can look after itself and maintain its balance. You'll come to sense
that if
you're aware right at awareness in and of itself, without going out to
get
involved in external things like the mental labels and thoughts that
will tend
to arise, the mind will see their constant arising and disbanding --
and won't
be embroiled in anything. This way it can be disengaged, empty, and
free. But
if it goes out to label things as good or evil, as "me" or
"mine," or gets attached to anything, it'll become unsettled and
disturbed. You have
to know
that if the mind can be still, totally and presently aware, and capable
of
contemplating with every activity, then blatant forms of suffering and
stress
will dissolve away. Even if they start to form, you can be alert to
them and
disperse them immediately. Once you see this actually happening -- even
in only
the beginning stages -- it can disperse a lot of the confusion and
turmoil in
your heart. In other words, don't let yourself dwell on the past or
latch onto
thoughts of the future. As for the events arising and passing away in
the
present, you have to leave them alone. Whatever your duties, simply do
them as
you have to -- and the mind won't get worked up about anything. It will
be able,
to at least some extent, to be empty and still. This one
thing is
something you have to be very careful about. You have to see this for
yourself: that if your mindfulness and discernment are
constantly in charge, the
truths of the arising and disbanding of mental and physical phenomena
are
always there for you to see, always there
for you to know. If you look at the body, you'll have to see it simply
as
physical properties. If you look at feelings, you'll have to see them
as
changing and inconstant: pleasure, pain, neither pleasure nor pain. To
see
these things is to see the truth within yourself. Don't let yourself
get caught
up with your external duties. Simply keep watch in this way inside. If
your
awareness is the sort that lets you read yourself correctly, the mind
will be
able to stay at normalcy, at equilibrium, at stillness, without any
resistance. If the
mind can
stay with itself and not go out looking for things to criticize or
latch onto,
it can maintain a natural form of stillness. So this is something we
have to
try for in our every activity. Keep your conversations to a minimum,
and there
won't be a whole lot of issues. Keep watch right at the mind. When you
keep
watch at the mind and your mindfulness is continuous, your senses can
stay
restrained. Being
mindful to
keep watch in this way is something you have to work at. Try it and
see: Can
you keep this sort of awareness continuous? What sort of things can
still get
the mind engaged? What sorts of thoughts and labels of good and bad, me
and
mine, does it think up? Then look to see if these things arise and
disband. The
sensations that
arise from external contact and internal contact all have the same
sorts of
characteristics. You have to look till you can see this. If you know
how to
look, you'll see it -- and the mind will grow calm. So the
point we
have to practice in this latter stage doesn't have a whole lot of
issues.
There's nothing you have to do, nothing you have to label, nothing you
have to
think a whole lot about. Simply look carefully and contemplate, and in
this
very lifetime you'll have a chance to be calm and at peace, to know
yourself
more profoundly within. You'll come to see that the Dhamma is amazing right
here in your own heart. Don't go searching
for the Dhamma outside, for it lies within. Peace lies within, but we
have to
contemplate so that we're aware all around -- subtly, deep down. If you
look
just on the surface, you won't understand anything. Even if the mind is
at
normalcy on the ordinary, everyday level, you won't understand much of
anything
at all. You have
to
contemplate so that you're aware all around in a skillful way. The word
"skillful" is something you can't explain with words, but you can
know for yourself when you see the way in which awareness within the
heart
becomes special, when you see what this special awareness is about.
This is something
you can know for yourself. And
there's not
really much to it: simply arising, persisting, disbanding. Look until
this
becomes plain -- really, really plain -- and everything disappears. All
suppositions, all conventional formulations, all those aggregates and
properties
get swept away, leaving nothing but awareness pure and simple, not
involved
with anything at all -- and there's nothing you have to do to it.
Simply stay
still and watch, be aware, letting go with every moment. Simply
watching this one thing is enough to do away with all sorts of
defilements, all
sorts of suffering and stress. If you don't know how to
watch it, the mind is sure to get disturbed. It's sure to label things
and
concoct thoughts. As soon as there's contact at the senses, it'll go
looking
for things to latch onto, liking and disliking the objects it meets in
the
present and then getting involved with the past and future, spinning a
web to
entangle itself. If you
truly look
at each moment in the present, there's really nothing at all. You'll
see with
every mental moment that things disband, disband, disband -- really
nothing at
all. The important point is that you don't go forming issues out of
nothing.
The physical elements perform their duties in line with their
elementary
physical nature. The mental elements keep sensing in line with their
own
affairs. But our stupidity is what goes looking for issues to cook up,
to
label, to think about. It goes looking for things to latch onto and
then gets
the mind into a turmoil. This point is all we really have to see for
ourselves.
This is the problem we have to solve for ourselves. If things are left
to their
nature, pure and simple, there's no "us," no "them." This
is a singular truth that will arise for us to know and see. There's
nothing
else we can know or see that can match it in any way. Once you know and
see
this one thing, it extinguishes all suffering and stress. The mind will
be
empty and free, with no meanings, no attachments, for anything at all. This is
why
looking inward is so special in so many ways. Whatever arises, simply
stop
still to look at it. Don't get excited by it. If you become excited
when any
special intuitions arise when the mind is still, you'll get the mind
worked up
into a turmoil. If you become afraid that this or that will happen,
that too
will get you in a turmoil. So you have to stop and look, stop and know.
The
first thing is simply to look. The first thing is simply to know. And
don't
latch onto what you know -- because whatever it is, it's simply a
phenomenon
that arises and disbands, arises and disbands, changing as part of its
nature. So your
awareness
has to take a firm stance right at the mind in and of itself. In the
beginning
stages, you have to know that when mindfulness is standing firm, the
mind won't
be affected by the objects of sensory contact. Keep working at
maintaining this
stance, holding firm to this stance. If you gain a sense of this for
yourself,
really knowing and seeing for yourself, your mindfulness will become
even more
firm. If anything arises in any way at all, you'll be able to let it go
-- and
all the many troubles and turmoils of the mind will dissolve away. If
mindfulness
slips and the mind goes out giving meanings to anything, latching onto
anything, troubles will arise, so you have to keep checking on this
with every
moment. There's nothing else that's so worth checking on. You have to
keep
check on the mind in and of itself, contemplating the mind in and of
itself. Or
else you can contemplate the body in and of itself, feelings in and of
themselves,
or the phenomenon of arising and disbanding -- i.e., the Dhamma -- in
and of
itself. All of these things are themes you can keep track of entirely
within
yourself. You don't have to keep track of a lot of themes, because
having a lot
of themes is what will make you restless and distracted. First you'll
practice
this theme, then you'll practice that, then you'll make comparisons,
all of
which will keep the mind from growing still. If you
can take
your stance at awareness, if you're skilled at looking, the mind can be
at
peace. You'll know how things arise and disband. First practice keeping
awareness right within yourself so that your mindfulness can be firm,
without
being affected by the objects of sensory contact, so that it won't
label things
as good or bad, pleasing or displeasing. You have to keep checking to
see that
when the mind can be at normalcy, centered and neutral as its primary
stance,
then -- whatever it knows or sees -- it will be able to contemplate and
let go. The
sensations in
the mind that we explain at such length are still on the level of
labels. Only
when there can be awareness right at awareness will you really be able to know that
the mind that is aware
of awareness in this way doesn't send its knowing outside of this
awareness.
There are no issues. Nothing can be concocted in the mind when it knows
in this
way. In other words, An
inward-staying The only
thing
you have to work at maintaining is the state of mind at normalcy --
knowing,
seeing, and still in the present. If you don't maintain it, if you
don't keep
looking after it, then when sensory contact comes it will have an
effect. The
mind will go out with labels of good and bad, liking and disliking. So
make
sure you maintain the basic awareness that's aware right at yourself.
And don't
let there be any labeling. No matter what sort of sensory contact
comes, you
have to make sure that this awareness comes first. If
you train
yourself correctly in this way, everything will stop. You won't go
straying out
through your senses of sight, hearing, etc. The mind will stop and
look, stop
and be aware right at awareness, so as to know the truth that all
things arise
and disband. There's no real truth to anything. Only our stupidity is
what
latches onto things, giving them meanings and then suffering for it --
suffering
because of its ignorance, suffering because of its unacquaintance with
the five
aggregates -- form, feelings, perceptions, thought-formations, and
consciousness -- all of which are inconstant, stressful, and not-self. Use
mindfulness
to gather your awareness together, and the mind will stop getting
unsettled,
stop running after things. It will be able to stop and be still. Then
make it
know in this way, see in this way constantly -- at every moment, with every
activity. Work at watching
and knowing the mind in and of itself: That will be enough to cut away
all
sorts of issues. You won't have to concern yourself with them. If the
body is in
pain, simply keep watch of it. You can simply keep watch of feelings in
the
body because the mind that's aware of itself in this way can keep watch
of
anything within or without. Or it can simply be aware of itself to the
point
where it lets go of things outside, lets go of sensory contact, and
keeps
constant watch on the mind in and of itself. That's when you'll know
that this
is what the mind is like when it's at peace: It doesn't give meanings
to
anything. It's the emptiness of the mind unattached, uninvolved,
unconcerned
with anything at all. These
words --
unattached, uninvolved, and unconcerned -- are things you have to
consider
carefully, because what they refer to is subtle and deep.
"Uninvolved" means uninvolved with sensory contact, undisturbed by
the body or feelings. "Unconcerned" means not worried about past,
future, or present. You have to contemplate these things until you know
them
skillfully. Even though they're subtle, you have to contemplate them
until you
know them thoroughly. And don't go concerning yourself with external
things,
because they'll keep you unsettled, keep you running, keep you
distracted with
labels and thoughts of good and bad and all that sort of thing. You
have to put
a stop to these things. If you don't, your practice won't accomplish
anything,
because these things keep playing up to you and deceiving you -- i.e.,
once you
see anything, it will fool you into seeing it as right, wrong, good,
bad, and
so forth. Eventually
you
have to come down to the awareness that everything simply arises,
persists, and
then disbands. Make sure you stay focused on the disbanding. If you watch just the arising, you may
get carried off on a
tangent, but if you focus on the disbanding you'll see emptiness:
Everything is
disbanding every instant. No matter what you look at, no matter what
you see,
it's there for just an instant and then disbands. Then it arises again.
Then it
disbands. There's simply arising, knowing, disbanding. So let's
watch
what happens of its own accord -- because the arising and disbanding
that occurs
by way of the senses is something that happens of its own accord. You
can't
prevent it. You can't force it. If you look and know it without
attachment,
there will be none of the harm that comes from joy or sorrow. The mind
will
stay in relative normalcy and neutrality. But if you're forgetful and
start
latching on, labeling things in pairs in any way at all -- good and
bad, happy
and sad, pleasing and displeasing -- the mind will become unsettled: no
longer
empty, no longer still. When this happens, you have to probe on in to
know why. All the
worthless
issues that arise in the mind have to be cut away. Then you'll find
that you
have less and less to say, less and less to talk about, less and less
to think
about. These things grow less and less on their own. They stop on their
own.
But if you get involved in a lot of issues, the mind won't be able to
stay
still. So we have to keep watching things that are completely
worthless and
without substance, to see that they're
not-self. Keep watching them repeatedly, because your awareness,
coupled with
the mindfulness and discernment that will know the truth, has to see
that,
"This isn't my self. There's no substance or worth to it at all. It
simply
arises and disbands right here. It's here for just an instant and then
it disbands." All we
have to do
is stop and look, stop and know clearly in this way, and we'll be able
to do
away with many, many kinds of suffering and stress. The normal stress
of the
aggregates will still occur -- we can't prevent it -- but we'll know
that it's
the stress of nature and won't latch onto it as ours. So we
keep watch
of things that happen on their own. If we know how to watch, we keep
watching
things that happen on their own. Don't latch onto them as being you or
yours.
Keep this awareness firmly established in itself, as much as you can,
and there
won't be much else you'll have to remember or think about. When you
keep
looking, keep knowing like this at all times, you'll come to see that
there are
no big issues going on. There's just the issue of arising, persisting,
and
disbanding. You don't have to label anything as good or bad. If you
simply look
in this way, it's no great weight on the heart. But if you go dragging
in
issues of good and bad, self and all that, then suffering starts in a
big way.
The defilements start in a big way and weigh on the heart, making it
troubled
and upset. So you have to stop and look, stop and investigate really
deep down
inside. It's like water covered with duckweed: Only when we take our
hand to
part the duckweed and take a look will we see that the water beneath it
is
crystal clear. As you
look into
the mind, you have to part it, you have to stop: stop thinking, stop
labeling
things as good or bad, stop everything. You can't go branding anything.
Simply
keep looking, keep knowing. When the mind is quiet, you'll see that
there's
nothing there. Everything is all still. Everything has all stopped
inside. But
as soon as there's labeling, even in the stillness, the stopping, the
quiet, it
will set things in motion. And as soon as things get set into motion,
and you
don't know how to let go right from the start, issues will arise, waves
will
arise. Once there are issues and waves, they strike the mind and it
goes
splashing all out of control. This splashing of the mind includes
craving and
defilement as well, because avijja --
ignorance -- lies at its root... Our major
obstacle is this aggregate of perceptions, of labels. If we aren't
aware of the
arising and disbanding of perceptions, these labels will take hold.
Perceptions
are the chief instigators that label things within and without, so we
have to
be aware of their arising and disbanding. Once we're aware in this way,
perceptions will no longer function as a cause of suffering. In other
words,
they won't give rise to any further thought-formations. The mind will
be aware
in itself and able to extinguish these things in itself. So we
have to
stop things at the level of perception. If we don't, thought-formations
will
fashion things into issues and then cause consciousness to wobble and
waver in
all sorts of ways. But these are things we can stop and look at, things
we can
know with every mental moment... If we aren't yet really acquainted
with the
arising and disbanding in the mind, we won't be able to let go. We can
talk about
letting go, but we can't do it because we don't yet know. As soon as
anything
arises we grab hold of it -- even when actually it's already disbanded,
but
since we don't really see, we don't know... So I ask
that you
understand this basic principle. Don't go grasping after this thing or
that, or
else you'll get yourself all unsettled. The basic theme is within: Look
on in,
keep knowing on in until you penetrate everything. The mind will then
be free
from turmoil. Empty. Quiet. Aware. So keep continuous watch of the mind
in and
of itself, and you'll come to the point where you simply run out of
things to
say. Everything will stop on its own, grow still on its own, because
the
underlying condition that has stopped and is still is already there, simply that we aren't aware of it yet. We have
to catch
sight of the sensation of knowing when the mind gains knowledge of
anything and
yet isn't aware of itself, to see how it latches onto things: physical
form,
feeling, perceptions, thought-formations, and consciousness. We have to
probe
on in and look on our own. We can't use the teachings we've memorized
to catch
sight of these things. That won't get us anywhere at all. We may
remember,
"The body is inconstant," but even though we can say it, we can't see
it. We have
to focus
on in to see exactly how the body is
inconstant, to see how it changes. And we have to focus on feelings --
pleasant,
painful, and neutral -- to see how they change. The same holds true
with
perceptions, thought-formations, and so forth. We have to focus on
them,
investigate them, contemplate them to see their characteristics as
they
actually are. Even
if you can see these
things for only a moment, it'll do you a world of good. You'll be able
to catch
yourself: The things you thought you knew, you didn't really know at
all...
This is why the knowledge we gain in the practice has to keep changing
through
many, many levels. It doesn't stay on just one level. So even
when
you're able to know arising and disbanding with every moment right in
the
present: If your contemplation isn't continuous, it won't be very
clear. You
have to know how to contemplate the bare sensation of arising and
disbanding,
simply arising and disbanding, without any labels of "good" or
"bad." Just keep with the pure sensation of arising and disbanding.
When you do this, other things will come to intrude -- but no matter
how they
intrude, it's still a matter of arising and disbanding, so you can keep
your
stance with arising and disbanding in this way. If you
start
labeling things, it gets confusing. All you need to do is keep looking
at the
right spot: the bare sensation of arising and disbanding. Simply make
sure that
you really keep watch of it. Whether there's awareness of sights,
sounds,
smells, tastes, or tactile sensations, just stay with the sensation of
arising
and disbanding. Don't go labeling the sight, sound, smell, taste, or
tactile
sensation. If you can keep watch in this way, you're with the pure
present --
and there won't be any issues. When you
keep
watch in this way, you're keeping watch on inconstancy, on change, as
it
actually occurs -- because even the arising and disbanding changes.
It's not the
same thing arising and disbanding all the time. First this sort of
sensation
arises and disbands, then that sort arises and disbands. If you keep
watch on
bare arising and disbanding like this, you're sure to arrive at
insight. But if
you keep watch with labels -- "That's the sound of a cow,"
"That's the bark of a dog" -- you won't be watching the bare sensation
of sound, the bare sensation of arising and disbanding. As soon as
there's
labeling, thought-formations come along with it. Your senses of touch,
sight,
hearing, and so forth will continue their bare arising and disbanding,
but you
won't know it. Instead, you'll label everything -- sights, sounds, etc.
-- and
then there will be attachments, feelings of pleasure and displeasure,
and you
won't know the truth. The truth
keeps
going along on its own. Sensations keep arising and then disbanding. If
we
focus right here -- at the consciousness of the bare sensation of
sights,
sounds, smells, tastes, and tactile sensations -- we'll be able to gain
insight
quickly... If we
know how to
observe things in this way, we'll be able to see easily when the mind
is
provoked by passion or greed, and even more easily when it's provoked
by anger.
As for delusion, that's something more subtle... something you have to
take a
great interest in and investigate carefully. You'll come to see all
sorts of
hidden things -- how the mind is covered with many, many layers of
film. It's
really fascinating. But then that's what insight meditation is for --
to open
your eyes so that you can know and see, so that you can destroy your
delusion
and ignorance. The
Deceits of Knowing You have
to find
approaches for contemplating and probing at all times so as to catch
sight of
the flickerings of awareness, to see in what ways it streams out to
know
things. Be careful to catch sight of it both when its knowing is right
and when
it's wrong. Don't mix things up, taking wrong knowledge for right, or
right
knowledge for wrong. This is something extremely important for the
practice,
this question of right and wrong knowing, for these things can play
tricks on
you. When you
gain any
new insights, don't go getting excited. You can't let yourself get
excited by
them at all, because it doesn't take long for your insight to change --
to
change right now, before your very eyes. It's not going to change at
some other
time or place. It's changing right now. You have to know how to
observe, how to
acquaint yourself with the deceits of knowledge. Even when
it's correct
knowledge, you can't latch onto it. Even
though we
may have standards for judging what sort of knowledge is correct in the
course
of our practice, don't go latching onto correct knowledge -- because
correct
knowledge is inconstant. It changes. It can turn into false knowledge,
or into
knowledge that is even more correct. You have to contemplate things
very
carefully -- very, very carefully -- so that you won't fall for your
knowledge,
thinking, "I've gained right insight; I know better than other
people," so that you won't start assuming yourself to be special. The
moment you assume yourself, your knowledge immediately turns wrong.
Even if you
don't let things show outwardly, the mere mental event in which the
mind labels
itself is a form of wrong knowing that obscures the mind from itself in
an insidious
way. This is
why
meditators who tend not to contemplate things, who don't catch sight of
the
deceits of every form of knowledge -- right and wrong, good and bad --
tend to
get bogged down in their knowledge. The knowledge that deceives them
into
thinking, "What I know is right," gives rise to strong pride and
conceit within them, without their even realizing it. This is
because
the defilements are always getting into the act without our realizing
it.
They're insidious, and in their insidious way they keep getting into
the act as
a matter of course, for the defilements and mental effluents are still
there in
our character. Our practice is basically a probing deep inside, from
the outer
levels of the mind to the inner ones. This is an approach that requires
a great
deal of subtlety and precision... The mind has to use its own
mindfulness
and discernment to dig everything out of itself, leaving just the mind
in and
of itself, the body in and of itself, and then keep watch of them. * * * The basic
challenge in the practice is this one point and nothing else: this
problem
of how to look inward so that you see clear through. If the mind hasn't been trained to
look inward, it tends to
look outward, simply waiting to receive its objects from outside -- and
all it gets
is the confusion of its sensations going in and out, in and out. And
even
though this confusion is one aspect of change and inconstancy, we don't
see it
that way. Instead, we see it as issues, good and bad, pertaining to the
self.
When this is the case, we're back right where we started, not knowing
what's
what. This is why the mind's sensations, when it isn't acquainted with
itself,
are so secretive and hard to perceive. If you want to find out about
them by
reading a lot of books, you end up piling more defilements onto the
mind,
making it even more thickly covered than before. So when
you turn
to look inward, you shouldn't use concepts and labels to do your
looking for
you. If you use concepts and labels to do your looking, there will be
nothing
but concepts arising, changing, and disbanding. Everything will get all
concocted into thoughts -- and then how will you be able to watch in
utter
silence? The more you take what you've learned from books to look
inside
yourself, the less you'll see. So
whatever
you've learned, when you come to the practice you have to put all the
labels
and concepts you've gained from your learning to one side. You have to
make
yourself an innocent beginner once more. Only then will you be able to
penetrate in to read the truths within you. If you carry all the
paraphernalia
of the concepts and standards you've gained from your learning to gauge
things
inside you, you can search to your dying day and yet won't meet with
any real
truths at all. This is why you have to hold to only one theme in your
practice.
If the mind has lots of themes to concern itself with, it's still just
wandering around -- wandering around to know this and that, going out
of bounds
without realizing it and not really wanting to know itself. This is why
those
with a lot of learning like to teach others, to show off their level of
understanding. And this is precisely how the desire to stand out keeps
the mind
obscured. Of all
the
various kinds of deception, there's none as bad as deceiving
yourself. When
you haven't yet really seen the truth, what business
do you have making assumptions about yourself, that you've attained
this or
that sort of knowledge, or that you know enough to teach others
correctly? The
Buddha is quite critical of teachers of this sort. He calls them
"people
in vain." Even if you can teach large numbers of people to become
arahants, while you yourself haven't tasted the flavor of the Dhamma,
the
Buddha says that you're a person in vain. So you have to keep examining
yourself. If you haven't yet really trained yourself in the things you
teach to
others, how will you be able to extinguish your own suffering? Think
about this
for a moment. Extinguishing suffering, gaining release from suffering:
Aren't
these subtle matters? Aren't they completely personal within us? If you
question yourself in this way, you'll be on the right track. But even
then you
have to be careful. If you start taking sides with yourself, the mind
will
cover itself up with wrong insights and wrong opinions. If you don't
observe
really carefully, you can get carried off on a tangent -- because the
awareness
with which the mind reads itself and actually sees through itself is
something
really extraordinary, really worth developing -- and it really
eliminates
suffering and defilement. This is the real, honest truth, not a lot of
propaganda or lies. It's something you really have to practice, and
then you'll
really have to see clearly in this way. When this is the case, how can
you not want
to practice? If you
examine
yourself correctly in this way, you'll be able to know what's real. But
you
have to be careful to examine yourself correctly. If you start latching
onto
any sense of self, thinking that you're better than other people, then
you've
failed the examination. No matter how correct your knowledge, you have
to keep
humble and respectful above all else. You can't let there be any pride
or
conceit at all, or it will destroy everything. This is
why the
awareness that eliminates the sense of self depends more than anything
else on your
powers of observation -- to check and see if there's still anything in
your
knowledge or opinions that comes from the force of pride in any sense
of
self... You have to use the full power of your mindfulness and
discernment to
cut these things away. It's nothing you can play around at. If you gain
a few
insights or let go of things a bit, don't go thinking you're anything
special.
The defilements don't hold a truce with anyone. They keep coming right
out as
they like. So you have to be circumspect and examine things on all
sides. Only
then will you be able to benefit in ways that make your defilements and
sufferings lighter and lighter. When we
probe in
to find the instigator -- the mind, or this property of consciousness
-- that's
when we're on the right track, and our probing will keep getting
results, will
keep weakening the germs of craving and wiping them out. In whatever
way
craving streams out, for "being" or "having" in any way at
all, we'll be able to catch sight of it every time. To catch hold and
examine
this "being" and "having" in this way, though, requires a
lot of subtlety. If you aren't really mindful and discerning, you won't
be able
to catch sight of these things at all, because the mind is continually
wanting
to be and to have. The germs of defilement lie hidden deep in the seed
of the
mind, in this property of consciousness. Simply to be aware of them
skillfully
is no mean feat -- so we shouldn't even think of trying to wipe them out with our
mere opinions. We have
to keep contemplating, probing on in, until things come together just
right, in
a single moment, and then it's like reaching the basic level of knowing
that
exists on its own, with no willing or intention at all. This is
something
that requires careful observation: the difference between willed and
unwilled
knowing. Sometimes there's the intention to look and be aware within,
but there
come times when there's no intention to look within, and yet knowledge
arises
on its own. If you don't yet know, look at the intention to look
inward: What
is it like? What is it looking for? What does it see? This is a basic
approach
you have to hold to. This is a level you have to work at, and one in
which you
have to make use of intention -- the intention to look inward in this
way... But
once you reach the basic level of knowing, then as soon as you happen
to focus
down and look within, the knowledge will occur on its own. Sabbe Dhamma
Anatta One night
I was
sitting in meditation outside in the open air -- my back straight as an
arrow --
firmly determined to make the mind quiet, but even after a long time it
wouldn't settle down. So I thought, "I've been working at this for many
days now, and yet my mind won't settle down at all. It's time to stop
being so
determined and to simply be aware of the mind." I started to take my
hands
and feet out of the meditation posture, but at the moment I had
unfolded one
leg but had yet to unfold the other, I could see that my mind was like
a
pendulum swinging more and more slowly, more and more slowly -- until
it
stopped. Then
there arose
an awareness that was sustained by itself. Slowly I put my legs and
hands back
into position. At the same time, the mind was in a state of awareness
absolutely and solidly still, seeing clearly into the elementary
phenomena of
existence as they arose and disbanded, changing in line with their
nature -- and
also seeing a separate condition inside, with no arising, disbanding,
or
changing, a condition beyond birth and death: something very difficult
to put
clearly into words, because it was a realization of the elementary
phenomena of
nature, completely internal and individual. After a
while I
slowly got up and lay down to rest. This state of mind remained there
as a
stillness that sustained itself deep down inside. Eventually the mind
came out
of this state and gradually returned to normal. From this
I was
able to observe how practice consisting of nothing but fierce desire
simply
upsets the mind and keeps it from being still. But when one's awareness
of the
mind is just right, an inner awareness will arise naturally of its own
accord.
Because of this clear inner awareness, I was able to continue knowing
the facts
of what's true and false, right and wrong, from that point on, and it
enabled
me to know that the moment when the mind let go of everything was a
clear
awareness of the elementary phenomena of nature, because it was an
awareness
that knew within and saw within of its own accord -- not something you
can know
or see by wanting. For this
reason
the Buddha's teaching, "Sabbe dhamma anatta -- All phenomena are not-self," tells
us not to latch
onto any of the phenomena of nature,
whether conditioned or unconditioned. From that point on I was able to
understand things and let go of attachments step by step. It's
important to
realize how to focus on events in order to get special benefits from
your
practice. You have to focus so as to observe and contemplate, not
simply to
make the mind still. Focus on how things arise, how they disband. Make
your focus
subtle and deep. When
you're aware
of the characteristics of your sensations, then -- if it's a physical
sensation -- contemplate that physical sensation. There will have to be
a feeling of
stress. Once there's a feeling of stress, how will you be aware of it
simply as
a feeling so that it won't lead to anything further? Once you can be
aware of
it simply as a feeling, it stops right there without producing any
taste in
terms of a desire for anything. The mind will disengage right there --
right
there at the feeling. If you don't focus on it in this way, craving
will arise
on top of the feeling -- craving to attain ease and be rid of the
stress and
pain. If you don't focus on the feeling in the proper way right from
the start,
craving will arise before you're aware of it, and if you then try to
let go of
it, it'll be very tiring... The way
in which
preoccupations take shape, the sensations of the mind as it's aware of
things
coming with every moment, the way these things change and disband:
These are
all things you have to focus on to see clearly. This is why we make the
mind
disengaged. We don't disengage it so that it doesn't know or amount to
anything. That's not the kind of disengagement we want. The more the
mind is
truly disengaged, the more it sees clearly into the characteristics of
the
arising and disbanding within itself. All I ask is that you observe
things
carefully, that your awareness be all-around at all times. Work at this
as much
as you can. If you can keep this sort of awareness going, you'll find
that the
mind or consciousness under the supervision of mindfulness and
discernment in
this way is different from -- is opposite from -- unsupervised
consciousness. It
will be the opposite sort of thing continually. If you
keep the
mind well supervised so that it's sensitive in the proper way, it will
yield
enormous benefits, not just small ones. If you don't make it properly
sensitive
and aware, what can you expect to gain from it? When we
say that
we gain from the practice, we're not talking about anything else: We're
talking
about gaining disengagement. Freedom. Emptiness. Before, the mind was
embroiled. Defilement and craving attacked and robbed it, leaving it
completely
entangled. Now it's disengaged, freed from the defilements that used to
gang up
to burn it. Its desires for this or that thing, its concocting of this
or that
thought, have all fallen away. So now it's empty and disengaged. It can
be
empty in this way right before your very eyes. Try to see it right now,
before
your eyes, right now as I'm speaking and you're listening. Probe on in
so as to
know. If you
can be
constantly aware in this way, you're following in the footsteps or
taking
within you the quality called "buddho," which
means one who knows, who is awake, who has blossomed
in the Dhamma. Even if you haven't fully blossomed -- if you've
blossomed only
to the extent of disengaging from the blatant levels of craving and
defilement -- you still benefit a great deal, for when the mind really
knows the
defilements and can let them go, it feels cool and refreshed in and of
itself.
This is the exact opposite of the defilements that, as soon as they
arise, make
us burn and smoulder inside. If we don't have the mindfulness and
discernment
to help us know, the defilements will burn us. But as soon as
mindfulness and
discernment know, the fires go out -- and they go out cold. Observe
how the
defilements arise and take shape -- they also disband in quick
succession, but
when they disband on their own in this way, go out on their own in this
way,
they go out hot. If we have mindfulness and discernment watching over
them,
they go out cold. Look so that you can see what the true knowledge of
mindfulness and discernment is like: It goes out; it goes out cold. As
for the
defilements, even when they arise and disband in line with their
nature, they
go out hot -- hot because we latch onto them, hot because of
attachment. When
they go out cold, look again -- it's because there's no attachment.
They've been
let go, put out. This is
something
really worth looking into: the fact that there's something very special
like
this in the mind -- special in that when it really knows the truth, it
isn't
attached. It's unentangled, empty, and free. This is how it's special.
It can
grow empty of greed, anger, and delusion, step after step. It can be
empty of
desire, empty of mental processes. The important thing is that you
really see
for yourself that the true nature of the mind is that it can be
empty... This
is why I said this morning that nibbana doesn't
lie anywhere else. It lies right here, right where things go out and
are cool,
go out and are cool. It's staring us right in the face. Reading
The Heart The
Buddha taught
that we are to know with our own hearts and minds. Even though there
are many,
many words and phrases coined to explain the Dhamma, we need focus only
on the
things we can know and see, extinguish and let go of, right in each
moment of
the immediate present -- better than taking on a load of other things.
Once we
can read and comprehend our inner awareness, we'll be struck deep
within us
that the Buddha awakened to the truth right here in the heart. His
truth is
truly the language of the heart. When they
translate the Dhamma in all sorts of ways, it becomes something
ordinary. But
if you keep close and careful watch right at the heart and mind, you'll
be able
to see clearly, to let go, to put down your burdens. If you don't know
right
here, your knowledge will send out all sorts of branches, turning into
thought-formations with all sorts of meanings in line with conventional
labels -- and all of them way off the mark. If you know
right
at your inner awareness and make it your constant stance, there's
nothing at
all: no need to take hold of anything, no need to label anything, no
need to
give anything names. Right where craving arises, right where it
disbands:
That's where you'll know what nibbana is
like... "Nibbana is simply this
disbanding of craving." That's what the Buddha stressed over and over
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